Reply to A non existent go I saw what I saw when a saw it.

[stilltrucking]

Maybe it is just about sex
But I think it is more than that
It is a power trip

What I don't get is why people have to have scripts to fuck. "Do you want anything special she asked" I said I can't think of anything, let s just act naturally I I decided to ask her if she wanted anything special since she asked me. And she said yes, "Scuba Suits". I thought it was kind of funny but now I realize it was probably because I used a rubber. But you know she asked me if I had herpes. ANd I asked her what are herpes? And she told me. It took her a half hour to talk me back into bed. I quess it must have been three or four years since the last time I had been with a woman so I got back in but used a rubber.

It was a sad story really, we had been pals for years. We had lots of fun, we could talk for hours, restaurants would close around us. We would get home at dawn. And then one st patricks day a drunk was all over her in a bar and I helped her out, but not before the guy had poked a finger in my eye as he went down. It hurt like hell and I suppose it was just a pity fuck to comfort me. Cause I had hit on her for years and we had never even kissed except a brother sisterly kind of peck. That was the night I gained a lover and lost a friend. It was never the same again. She was right, we were not meant to be lovers, she only let me in that night out of kindness.

Pity fucks are okay, but revenge fucks are very sweet.

I don't know sister. Is biology unfair to women?
Is that why pious jews thank the creator for not creating them women?

I agree with that, poor women all they got was hairy assed men as their other,


Rant on sister

"is there anything a man don't stand to lose when he lets a woman hold him in her hands?"

Is this one of those estrogen jams or are unwombman welcome

going to submit it

and be emarrased later

let me tell you about men

it is a comfort to me to know my sister has a husband to comfort her

but he is every thing you said about men

but somehow they manage to hold it together

twenty five years now

they have been divorced once and remarried.

I hope they make it this time
There last divorce cost me thirty thousand dollars.
But some how they love eachother, they would be lost without each other. Marriage some of them are so weird.

I could rant on
but since your post is gone why bother

[Susan Marie]

*grin*

its coming we are putting it into a jam instead of a post . . .

[Susan Marie]

i dont know
how someone can do a
revenge fuck

sheesh man
thats kind of
low and
dirty and my heart bleeds way to

hemophiliac

for that shit
and even a pity fuck

it isnt in me
i have to have love
i know
a curse
the most wicked kind

i am blessed with that kind fo shit

love
caring
heart
soul
spirit
mind
body

[stilltrucking]

I am glad I am an old man now
and I can talk about this shit with out getting excited
I don't know what it was
I said pity fuck cause I know she did not feel attracted to me
except as a brother/friend

But I think she felt guilty cause I got hurt

Call it a reward fuck
this all happened thirty two or three years ago
now that I think about that is what she said, she wanted to reward me, comfort me, take my mind off my lacerated cornea. .

I will tell you something else
I never liked blow jobs
To got dam passive.
I think she had herpes maybe that is why she did not want to fuck me. She tried to go down on me but as soon as I felt her mouth on me I jumped up picked her up like a slice of pie and had my way with her. But I used a rubber.

If I had it to do over again I would rather have her as a friend.

It is funny for a guy as sexualy inexperienced as I am how much sexual karma I have to burn.

revenge fucks are sweet

[Susan Marie]

i know too much about that
friend or fuck syndrome

and many times
would have much rather
kept
the friend

trust me

they last much longer

but the slice of pie
did sound quite fine

[Susan Marie]

(that nonexistent jam shall return, one of our poets cannot get online man)

(thanks still trucking have a good one)

[stilltrucking]

fools rush in

It was dam fine rant
I am glad I read it.

bye

[stilltrucking]

I suppose it is just a guy thing
but I have seen the spiderwebs in the moonlight
so much sexual content in your rant
but I think sex has nothing to do with it
well maybe power is an aphrodisiac

My vanity filters my understanding
Here was this woman who was grateful to me
And all she really wanted was to watch me cum.
And maybe I should have kissed my horse and road off into the sunset
Because she knew my "type"
And we were destined to be friends not lovers.

She wanted to do the "clinging" not her man.
She was my feminist friend from washington DC

Just jamming with my self again
writing out loud

[joel]

<==Talk about sexual inexperience and disproportionate sexual karma!
<==Does this not look like the face
of the Enlightenment?
of Inclusion?

I'm committed to shucking the old patriarchal maskulinities--
but I'm also still so shallow
maybe not as a man--maybe as a human
(I hope as a human)

In so many ways, she's perfect for me:
same faith
same food
same family
same pet
same politics
same permission
same honor
same humor
same hunger
same
same
sameness...

...but she doesn't turn me on
...and when I say she's beautiful,
I mean it as a higher praise
and not as do-me-now
and I am ashamed that that's my hang-up
but doesn't she deserve to be hot-beautiful
and don't I deserve the whole package--even the shallow bits?

I don't know that I don't string her along
a whole herd of elephants ignored around around

but I also think we're too alike
hot is different
hot is challenging
hot pushes me to grow and doesn't just agree

...but maybe that's just my hot excuse....

I wouldn't mind being labeled a pig
provided I am also labeled honest.

Let's a call a fuck for what it is.

[stilltrucking]

intricasies of female trigonometry eludes me
the calculation of the angel of the dangle perpendickular to the man

I don't mind being an appendage to her need
so long as I am honest enought to know that I am in it
for what is in it for me.

And if it pleases her
that's good too

male sexuality is as an afterthought compared to a woman's
and men who rage against women for being women
are frightened by her power and hate her for that power.
I only speak from experience
very limited experience
and from before you are born
I only fuck with paper dolls these days
my angel of the centerfold
in literary magazines.

I can't fuck with her body
unles she can fuck with my mind

[Susan Marie]

bein a word
person
and kinda just
stringin' things

here
and there

i want you guys to please read

Saul Williams
man he bleeds
but in beauty hurt freedom ringing peace
and shit, he preaches but it is a decree

was an emcee then tricked a pome
stridin' NYC
got talked into a jam
and from then on

he was

majestic.

~~~

"She" and "said the shotgun to the head"

amazing.

[stilltrucking]

not a word person myself
my words as poetical as a cinderblock wall
but a word freak
that is me
a word kook
as if they meant something
as if they could change anything
magic words intrigued from an early age
Shazam

As if i could write happy endings for those I love.







and she said right
and I said left
she said white
and I said gray

Maryland state motto
has gone politicaly correct
"Fatti Maschii, Parole Femine"
in the old days it was translated as
manly deeds and womanly words
now a days it reads
strong deeds and gentle words

I checked him out
thanks
sick my mind must be
She and said
and shotgun
and I think of the Dorothy Stratten story

[stilltrucking]

The young man who has not wept is a savage, and the old man who will not laugh is a fool...George Santayana

The young man knows the rules, but the old man knows the exceptions. ... George Santayana.

You know joel you asked me once what my goals are.

But after 27 years of holding my own

I kind of don't count on getting laid again.

But I can't kid myself

I love women joel

I love to watch their faces

You know I forgot what you said.

Joel wrote:

<==Talk about sexual inexperience and disproportionate sexual karma!
<==Does this not look like the face
of the Enlightenment?
of Inclusion?

Been a long time joel
I got to write it off
for years and years
I have tried
started
and failed to write
about my last twenty seven years
Some people see what is on the end of their forks
I been taking a good long look at what was on the end of my putz
when I was an appendage to a woman
and got pussy whipped
never was a man so pussy whipped as me

I call it Spider Love, my litttle stroy
or maybe My Three Scarlet Letters
AAA

but whatever is past is past
It don't always have to be a fuck
sometimes all she needs is a back rub
geezus h christz
I can't believe I am writting this
yeah I love those creatures
last time I got to hold one been twenty seven years
but you know about four years ago
there was this nurse
I have never had my blood pressure checked so thourgly
My arm was stiff for a week
I made a date to come to her friday night yoga class
and I never showed up

I wondered why now I know
fucking mail ego
fragile as egg shells.

But there she was leaning across the examing table complaining about back pain

And I said I was sorry
and she said
"you don't care"
she was right
I am a putz
still
after all these years
I could have at least showed her some tenderness
reached out and touched her pain.

oh lord
when will my dream lover return
she comes so quietly and darkly into my dreams
old men still dream thank god

[joel]

Return, return, O Shulammite.

[stilltrucking]

Yes shiksas are sweet

that little old lady owned my ass
when I was just a little jackster
she had me convinced
there was a difference

I wondered at the time if it was because she was a Jewess
But I know what it was
a freezing February morning in a farm house in virginia
the day The Magician of Lublin caught up with me





oh lordy geezer memory
about a year ago it came back to me
those wonderful baths
playing this little piggy went to market
and for years I thought I had eleven toes.

yes "is there anything a man don't stand to lose when he lets a woman..."