Bandit Notions

[creativesoul]

i am mothering a garden- and camping again on aug 12th- supposed to go to kauai for week== aug 1st thru 5th- dunno-
i am planting corn thinking about the paintings on my mind = haying- those round things of hay - and plains of color and heat coming off them in the sun-had too many guests- i am to where i cannot sleep if the people are visiting- i slept well last evening- there were no passions chasing me- but i woke up with that softened heart and held my dog-because he needs love as much as i do- crossing the longview bridge WA = below is the graveyard for who-knows-how-many -trees- i pray for them - all those trees- - it is sad- i apologize to them- because we really do not need that much wood- not today- --
I THINK OF THAT AVACADO ON THE KITCHEN COUNTER- AND I BELIEVE THAT THIS IS MY DIVINE PURPOSE THIS DAY- watering the corn and squash- planting the plants this woman brought over here- sad - city herbs= we have all that out here- it was a gesture i guess- i am ready to get them outta my greenhouse--
so maybe i do not 'get it' about motives and people- but i get one thing- that we are all palaying it by ear- no one wants to be second fiddle and smile- so much will not need be spoken of - in the name of peace?= yep that its because we want the place to be filled with love- yeah=
learning-yearning for the real deal

[the mingo]

"playing it by ear' - yeah! that's the ticket! - plus I don't go for a lot of fuss - or any fuss if I can get away with that - the world always conspires to give ya fuss - lots of folks are buried in it appears to me but what the hell do I know? As far as the "real deal" goes I think we are dealt that card the moment we are conceived. You paint? Would you be inclined to show me one or two of that? I'd really like to see them. Lately I been fooling around with water & paint in a way to stain the canvas and let the painting grow itself with as little interference on my part as possible. I'm including an example of one of these here.

[creativesoul]

Lovely! I will try to post one-

[the mingo]

Ok -

[creativesoul]

This may seem simple to you but I am sans geek..

[creativesoul]

This may seem simple to you but I am sans geek..

[creativesoul]

This is Eva

[creativesoul]

Well_now-I have another-

[creativesoul]

So what do you think?

[the mingo]

The Chumash made little distinction between the natural & supernatural world.
Rock Paintings of the Chumash Indians - Steve Penny

Simple?? Are you shitting me? Look at the way you use color! And what color! Righteous! What do I think?
I think Wow.
Twice.

Thank you,Jana

[creativesoul]

i want a space where i do not have to put my toys away = large canvas and shelves of books- i see a house that is whitewashed - wooden with wooden windows- i see a cat running accross the lawn with a gift in his mouth- a mouse- there are red tail hawks that walk with me and the dogs in the morning- and i just want to paint and write-
that is all- but i must socialize a bit-i think- but that is a freeway offramp- a place off the map- away from the color- or towards the color- ever changing-
anytime-
welcome-
i think you might be like me-
so swayed by the drums- and the energy in the heart

[creativesoul]

i sit here thinking about a cigarette - i spend more time thinking about smoking than i actully do- my son quit drinking coffee- and he eats freshly squeezed juices and quinoa- i am chilly this summer s day- the sun has not arrived yet- the wind like the chinese year of the water serpent is true to prediction--------------------wind ---------------howling- the low ceiling of gray skies-
i have tried all the things i know to do and still came up with maybe 20 bucks in my piggy bank- and 20 bucks worth of gas- wishing i sold some paintings- wish i was in love- but that might change the flow of plains of colors on my skin and eyelids- like butterfly dust- it is a spiritual thing- i guess= pollen and bees=- brushes and color
the brush seems quieter than usual=

[the mingo]

Hey if you find a space like that let me know where I can get one - I have a small room upstairs here at the lodge which is my paint room - so I don't really have to put my toys away but the room is small - i figure this place was built sometime around the Civil Damn War so the rooms are small - I need a bigger space one of these days - i want to work on a larger scale some day - drums & the heart - i hear that - we are like in some ways it seems - I stopped smoking three and a half years ago, the day I discovered electronic vaping devices - been a love affair ever since - before that time I had smoked for 45 yrs and could knock down a couple packs a day most times & sometimes more - but the first time I tried an electronic device I, in wonder, realized that I could be free from tobacco in any form and that's the way it has turned out to be. I'm vaping my ass off and just loving it! Got grey skies here too - thunder boomers tonight I bet - don't worry about the quiet brush - if it's in you it will stir again - that's how it is for me anyways - some days I can't stop painting and can't work fast enough to capture it all or get it all out - other days I wonder where all my ambition & drive went -
I like to be working on them or at least have one under construction - I like it so much because, for me, it's a calling on the spirits - of time, of place, of memory, or that which is yet to be - even if you have no idea or notion of what or how to begin a single stroke of a loaded brush on a bare canvas opens a door to worlds - worlds. A single brushstroke and next thing ya know you are in good and often wild & rambunctious company. I'm not an artist but a painter and that's all I ever want or ask from brush & canvas - to be a painter.
So don't be blue - the spirit of that in you is not sleeping but gathering and when it gets to critical mass it will bust loose and take you along. You can make book on it.

[creativesoul]

Beautiful- just went to the movies- it was strange! Have not had popcorn - in a theatre - for awhile- broke out in a sweat in there- it was so hot! All that energy just started cooking me- wow- anyway- in a restaurant- salad bar- mango flavored electric cig- I guess I'm going to be ok- whatever that means

[the mingo]

Now I don't believe I've ever known anyone to admit to getting into a pre-orgasmic state by going into a movie theater & eating popcorn but I'm sure that has to be a plus & OK!