I am tripping more than you are. Battling razzberries

[the mingo]

Wow. & to think I was coming here tonight to tell ya what a funked out mood ambushed me today and how it just got worse & worse and I find ya buzzin' here to beat the band ... wow. I was talkin' to someone at work tonight and words just deserted me and became just noise I was sayin' and I just had to walk away. I think maybe some exhaustion showed up to hang around awhile. Maybe your bird fairy put his finger in the water. I think your driving thing is anxiety. Such a sweet thing anxiety is - in other words a real bitch. Hang in there, Annie B. cause you're all ya got and you needs you. Ya know ? And I think I need a dose of, the world is too much with me ya see & I need a dose of the God-shakes. Ain't been into my Scripture too much lately. I need to know I'm headed for a resurrection, ya know? Ya lose that you lose everything. Nothing to go forward for without it. Nothin'.
O don't even listen to me cause funked out is more than a word at the moment.
Must be to maybe somethin' in the moon out there tonight.
God, this is lousy. Seems the older I get the greater this mess becomes sometimes. I'd run maybe but there is no place to be. Just got crossways in the current I think & there ain't nothin' for it but to hope the boat don't go over.
Maybe just stepped in dogshit from hell. Can't even hit my sunglass wearing smiley. Take me to the the river...yeah, that.
'Nite, Annie B.

[SadLuckDame]

What happened to ya out there on the battlefield that got ya caught up in the knot? I'd have my fingers on it if I could. Yesterday I was mystified, thinking of you on the deck, taking down some mental images of being in the captain's cabin, having your hands on the ropes with the bristle and the rub...all to gain a pull, gonna be that pull.

Mingo seeing the whale, I bet she's thunder in the waters.

True about the anxieties and about the scriptures.
The car driving thing helps me remember I can't drive, ha ha and that whenever I try to take over I'll get shaky cause I do gots to let God drive this thing. I mean he's got talent, He's sturdier than I. I'm sure that is what that is doing, giving me the strong reminder. I'm gonna kill somebodies if I'm driving, ya know and I don't wants to be responsible...besides it's a great seat taking in the scenery.

I need to read some Bible, too.

[the mingo]

I once saw whales in the north Pacific. They was just choogling along the surface. We had just finished refueling two other ships. My watch was over and I came up on deck out of the engine room to get some air and there they were. Five females and two calves. It was early morning, full dawn and the slanting light glistened off the whale's backs. The calves stayed close to their mothers. One was more playful than the other. It would swim off aways then come back. I watched them as we turned to pull for Japan. The whales didn't say where they were headed.

Think the mood has passed with yesterday. Still feelin' somewhat hollow around the edges. I'm gonna cut a couple of slices of raisin bread off a loaf that came from the Mennonites into my house yesterday and have myself a feast with lotsa butter. Keep drivin', the confidence will come.

We will find a way. Gonna go up and paint I think. I have to put some color onto the tail of your angel and find out what other trouble might be had.

Read some out of Colossians last night when I went to bed. Ya know, that apostle Paul guy when he was in the Spirit he could kick some ass. He slapped me across the face and said, "Snap out of it, ol' son, cause you been made new by Him whose Word sustains all things and whatever is blinding you don't come from the One who raised you with Christ from the dead! Now knock off your whining and lift up your eyes because what is seen is temporary & what is unseen is eternal & there is work to do & miles to go. I fell asleep with that but the Word never sleeps.

Ya know, I think I'd make a hell of a preacher.

And thx for your words, Annie B. We'll muddle through. Keep drivin' cause calm will come as experience grows and the day will be when you will laugh at yourself 'bout all this. For sure.

For sure.

Later, Doll.

[the mingo]

like the card says it ain't always wantin' to make ya dance and when it's downright boring sometimes ya just have to get creative on it. Scare the shit outta things. rattle your cage once in awhile just to let the world know ya got a beast inside ya and they all better hope the door holds.

[SadLuckDame]

Look at you with your sunglasses on, u.
There I have ya now, mingo's on the go go and going to be all good. I know how strong ya are. Lonely at the top, yes. Be the seaman, it looks good on you. I likes.

I'm gonna be driving those roads some day. I'm in pursuit, don't ya knows and thank you, u.

I'd get on the plane to have the catfish splashing bubbles at me. I almost had only he said he wasn't gonna be there when I got there. Isn't that a trip, lol.
I planned drinking some wine and doing some time with varlarian root tea.
But, he was gone fishing.


Anyway, it's all for reason
and another season. ppp
He mights not likes me much enough
or I prolly shouldn't of told him I was gonna be
scaredid flying. If I'd bit my tongue like this

Those whales you were talking about are sailing around in my head. I see them there. Good stuffs. You said haiku and ya spoiled me with a picture. *smiles

[the mingo]

Yeah I know I said haiku and when I said it I was sure that's all it would be but seems I had more words in me than I felt then. I can't figure myself too well at times. Hold the line I gotta take my shoes off, just home from work. Ok, that's better. Ya know, our spirits are like the climate and our moods are like the weather that happens across it. That's what I think.

You ended your post with a *smiles*. Now that's what i call livin' ! I can imagine that. Now I can go to sleep good.

'Nite, Doll.

[the mingo]

got a moment before the day goes nuts - got down into the harbor to see the ships yesterday afternoon got some shots will post them when the wind dies down.

and ...

[SadLuckDame]

Met ya last night when dreaming.
I'd even said your full name out like that to some lady at a flea market when you and I were trying out some crazy shoes. I can't wait to see them. Hope you get it all out on the water.

Yesterday I bought some tension reliever tea, gonna try it out today.

[the mingo]

Sneakin' up behind the Pinta & Nina in a daring daylight cavalry raid from the lake.

[the mingo]

The Nina

[the mingo]

The Pinta plus son Jesse. We call him "Nearly Yellow" because of his kayak. It bothers the hell out of him so we do a lot. Or Yum-Yum Bumblebee. Bothers him even more.

[the mingo]

Both ships with Nancy up close to them clickin' away.

[SadLuckDame]

Heart!
What a day you brought in on the ripple.
I got chills. ty, u.

What's in store tomorrow in your kayak?

[the mingo]

Thx Doll, glad your pleased with them. Got one more and then I'm outta here. Just got back from the reunion & I am beat. Will talk to ya tomorrow when I feel human again. See ya then.

[the mingo]

I probably won't get out again 'til next weekend sorry to say. Would be nice to just drop into some water tomorrow but nada. Work week.