very interested in hearing what you have to write about karma
I guess I will leave that for another time and possibly a new thread. Since this is your space, not sure if I should start my own topic or wait until you bring it up.
You talk about your vanity, how you think everything is about you or something you might have done or did or said. I can relate because I think that I tend to piss folks off frequently with my outspoken ways and blatant honest assessments.
But, it is what it is and what others think, say or do is not my purview. I should just issue a blanket apology, "I am sorry if you were offended, it was not my intent..." and then I would have it covered.
Have you heard about the woman with Aspergers that works with cattle in feed lots? She gives lectures around the country now. If I had the gumption, I would google her and give you the details but I am low on fuel and energy right now and not in the mood.
I do know that she used a squeeze pen on herself (the contraption that they put cattle in to doctor them but you may know that.) She talks about her relationship with animals and lack of relationships with people. She can't "read" them. She has made a big difference in cattle that are facing death and calming their fears as they go to slaughter. Very interesting and maybe I can give you a link later...
Yeah, the bible has some interesting poetry in it but I prefer Walt Whitman. Very enlightened man, that guy. Or reading Basso or Issa or Reps. Too much drama in the bible for me, and horror stories don't interest me much. My number one son, Noah Matthew (both my sons have biblical names...isn't that a hoot?) loves the horror genre and is a movie buff and critique of them. I am off on a rabbit trail again...
The bible (and I have a collection of them around here, my grandmother's, my father's, mine from Methodist Bible School) to me is given waaaaay too much power in this world. Some folks can't make a move without it and it rules their lives. No thanks. I'll pass...
As for Jesus (Mexico loves that name), I don't doubt he existed. I think he is one of the most misunderstood guys ever. Everyone and their brother wants to translate what he said to their ends, and if you say anything ANYTHING against him or about him in any demeaning light in their eyes, they will persecute you to no end. What's that all about? Nutso. John Lennon found out about that...
It makes me think of Monty Python's Life of Brian. Crazy stuff.
I believe, if there is anything I believe in, that you or you or you can believe whatever or whomever you want. Join a cult, crawl on your knees up a mountain, poke yourself in the eye, bow down in obeisance, pray and meditate, put a tortured man on your wall, whatever...have at it. I don't want anyone telling me what to believe or whom or what to follow and I think I owe my fellow humans the same respect as I expect. Don't expect me to mince words tho... and I'll expect the same (that's karma.)
Speaking of re-fried beans, I love Mexican food, especially border Mexican which is really different than New Mexican or Austin or San Antonio. I guess because I grew up here, I think Phar Lepht has the best. It does.
Ruidoso is my home away from home. I am soooo hyped to be going there again as we rarely get away what with Nathan Daniel and the dogs.
My mother is a bridge Zen Master, she even wrote a book on bridge (actually, it is more like a bible, her students wrote the book quoting her...) I will post some of it sometime. Amazing stuff and good for just living.