passwords. codes. cell phones, bills, tales, love and vacati

[creativesoul]

lets take a trip to the super market
that is a no go
the male gender I love requests that I purchase lunch meat. I refuse on the grounds that he wastes food and goes out to fast food places anyway, so I told him he is going to have to buy it
WHAT THE FUCK EVER he says
I was headed for the drier for the jeans that fit my formless body will not commit to a size. these fit with my name written on the levi size patch
I was locked out of studio eight because my brain is not working right. I had to be medically taken off anti-depressants
I am on one quarter of what the shrink had me on, and this is the last week.
My short term memory is wiped out. I had to drop out of post bac at PSU because the homework monsters and I had a tug of war between deaths, and seroquel withdrawl and my man that I love
looking at me as if I fell off a turnip truck. I had been falling down quite a bit. I became a long list of defects and side effects.
My friends and loved ones said they could not understand what I was saying but I could not really hear them, or I did not believe them, or I didn t want to- I dunno
Apparently I took my bearded dragon for a ride in my car one day and my sweetheart found Lizzie in the back seat freaked out to the maz
I remember nothing
I thought she was in the window in the palm trees pretending she was free.
I can do that too
that is one of our common grounds
When I go into the reptile room I am subject to interrogation as in fact it is not really my space, but it is small and the heat stays in there pretty good. Tecnically it is my lover s office
there are alot of things floating around this house that dropped on me, almost killed me and all I got were red and white stripped socks.
2007 dollars a month before food.
my sons have saved my life more than once. The oldest lives in San Francisco and is a brillant cameraman and editor, he is creative and has my heart. My youngest lives in Chile and has an Aquaculture bussiness and works very very hard, like his father, but he has my heart.
there are drawbacks to having a heart like ours. It is alot like being over drawn at the bank, and check charges and it gets wrose before it gets better.
i am swinging the bell for salvation army and praying alot to Great Spirit. I like it. People share the viewpionts they carry with me. I am grateful I have a job where no one bosses me around.
I just turned 51 dec 5th. I cry more now than I ever have before. My italian mother in law Domenica used to cry whenever we left to go anywhere. I never understood
I do now. love hurts
I love so much it hurts sometimes.

[judih]

and a belated happy birthday to you creative-s.
two beloved sons
a dragon and a talented hand
may the year bring you fruit and joy

[Arcadia]

feliz cumpleaños if it´s somehow autobiographic, c-soul!!!!

beautiful song!!!!!!!

[goldenmyst]

Creativesoul, I dig where you are coming from. Your poem is excellently spoken and deeply felt. I empathize with the seroquel withdrawal. My doc is talking about taking me off Zyprexa. I dread the thought of it. Between the side effects and the stigma of the illness keeping one's head above water can be daunting. You sound like a brave soul. Poetry can be a way of coping and surviving in my experience. You do write your life so well.

John