"Pah! You know nothing of paranoia compared to I."

[stilltrucking]

I read a link of yours somewhere else that'd went into detail about the harlot, who'd disguised herself to get the father in law to bear her seed. I'll re hunt for it.

I don't think so, you sure it was not somebody elses post? But I may have forgot. I will search my posts for it.
Which reminds me of something esle
which reminds me of ...
so it goes



What I am thinking about now is the time the Hebrew children had a city surrounded and the people in the city sent out an emmissary to sue for peace. The Jews said okay we won't attack your city if you all convert to our religion. So every warrior in the city was cirucmcized. While they were laid up and could not fight the jews attacked and destroyed the city. A jewish friend of mine who was a historian at Johns Hopkins University in Baltimore told me that story.
I guess I should google it and see if it was true. Phil Bryzman (my friend) was no antisemite.

thanks
I regret the crack about the book of jackadiah mingo. Thinking about the guy who was boiled in oil for translating the bible into english. I did not mean to be disrespectul to the book. They say he never cried out in pain, never wavered from his faith. A hell of a price he paid I am trying to be grateful. I can't remember his name Tyndale?

Mean while we are all flowing towards Vela. So much beauty in the world.
And in san antonio one christmas day a five year old boy starved to death while his family was eating their christmass feast in another room.

I been thinking about using his face for an avatar.
Ripples in still waters

Nothing to do with anything, another child was beaten to death here this week. Happens a lot down here. But it was just a Mexican kid.

[stilltrucking]

"Is every body happy"

Fuck yes.

Sorry I can't control my thoughts

They come barrelling through like that southern pacific freight train going by my shack by the railroad tracks.

I just let them roll
come and go as they please.
I need a cigarette.

I got to go
I am done with this one
but you all can stick around if you want to

"Let him roll boys let him roll
He always thought that Heaven was just a dallas whore"

[SadLuckDame]

Do you think I only live in the present, as Meursault? But, I don't, I live in past and present. I'm never planning future I s'pose, but I do live at least in both present and past, fully.

I'm playing catch-up.

Then you leave.

I don't think so, you sure it was not somebody elses post?

It's probable. But, unlikely. I just read it in the past two days of reading what you were pointing out. I'm known for being wrong about some things, so it's a good possibility.

Anyway, it went into more detail, it told about how the other daughters pinged off, and the father in law promised her she could finally wed the son. Though the father in law forgot about it in his booze, she hadn't forgotten. So with a disguise and pretending to be a whore, she took him in easily. He'd been tricked, he gave her some of his possessions in return for 'payment' than she used those same items of his to prove he'd plopped the seed in.

I told the Magician he was a pocket full of stars, and so Vela I'll go towards. I'd go to big sur to be alone. Cross that little rickety bridge and look down as I crossed it. Did you mean it like that? Yes, the dread is even in beautiful, divine, even Holy places.

more soon. or maybe not if you're not reading it anymore.

[sooZen]

I think I will...stick around that is. Never know where this train is gonna take me.

I am leaving you tho, Friday. In case someone asks. They won't. I leave a lot. Just look at how many posts I have compared to anyone. A dearth of posts. But I am rattling on...

Friday I am going to the Sacramento (Sacred) mountains in the Land of Enchantment for a weekend show. Mtmynd is going too, for the first time (for this show.)

You may remember when he was hospitalized for his heart (actually his vein.) I was at that show when I got the phone call from his friend who was staying with him. Cecil was staying home with Nate and the dogs. He saw his cardiologist recently. He said, "get outta here, see you in a year!" Good news.

But I digress, Cactus Mary, the soap maker and good friend is staying here with Nate and the dogs. No better friend than that! Since Mary, we have been able to travel a bit together! It is nice, more than nice. Most of my friends are intimidated by Nate and wouldn't offer to watch him for us, but not Mary. He calls her "cowgirl."

The bible doesn't like women much. We get to be the villains mostly or just left out. It is a men's tale told by men. You can start with poor ole' Eve (a rib eye steak) and work your way through. I have read the book and was born again in my youth. But now, I am reborn every day...on this side of the dirt. That book carries no special weight with me, in fact it is a burden and I put it down.

Mexicans in Mexico don't like women much either (according to Cesar Millan, the Dog Whisperer in his new book.) They are treated worse than dogs in some cases, he says. I know plenty of fine Mexican men but sadly, many of them have a wife and a mistress and both have a passel of kids the women are raising mostly alone.

Our next door neighbor (?) was in and out of jail. His wife spoke no English and the boys were hell on wheels. They spray painted their dog and the neighborhood. I was glad when they moved out. I didn't have to worry about that starving dog no more.

My new neighbor is a young Hispanic woman with two little kids, raising them alone with the help of her parents. I like her, she takes no guff from those kids. (a school teacher.)

I need to get off this contraption and work some. Toot toot!

[stilltrucking]

I'm playing catch-up.

Then you leave.

You were in a good mood
and my mood went black

I try not to delete stuff anymore
But I was sorry I said that as soon as I wrote it.

Everytime you mention the magician
I think of the guy in Tehran who she called her magician.
I mean the woman who wrote Reading Lolita in Tehran.


Got dam me mz dame
I don't understand "the eternal return"
in nietzsche
I think it means no regrets.

I don't understand karma either.

I just posted this to jimboloco on Geoff Parson's art log here

I want to be a paper back writer.
I always liked that beatles song.

I don't know jimboloco
I wish him every success
He has the drive

My got dam mood swinging today.
Never will understand the karma thing

I mean it works for me
I get what I got coming
but it seems so strange that a baby is born to a 16 year old mother and an 18 year old father
only to live one year and be beaten to death by her father because she cried too much.

http://www.mysanantonio.com/opinion/Bab ... haven.html

Vela

Did you read white bird sing's post on GO?
http://www.studioeight.tv/phpbb/viewtopic.php?t=16885
Yes you did I think because you mentioned Meseault (sp?)

I went to prostitute when I was 14, I used to hang with a older crowd.
It almost ruined sex for me.
It was so ugly
Never again I said
I am not judging them
Jesus did not
why should I

She wrote some beautiful stuff
I guess she was a "working girl" when she was young
I deleted the link here because I can't find the post I was thinking maybe it was someone else.

I spent thirty years living in Husserl's The Phenomenology of Internal Time Consciousness
Made it about half way through it
Your mention of Merseault tripped my trigger

[stilltrucking]

SooZen
I will get back to you
Sorry
I am too hungry to concentrate on your words right now.

I mentioned to sad luck that I was sorry i posted that.

I think one of the things I admire about you is how you take responsibility for your words. That has probably nothing to do with what you wrote.

I need to eat dinner.

be back

[sooZen]

Truck, I will be here or here or here eventually.

Have a nice meal, enjoy.

You mentioned Karma (energy). I have a few theories I would love to discuss with you sometime. Nothing concrete. It is one of those things...believe it or not, as Ripley would say.

See you on the flip side.

[stilltrucking]

ten four catch you on the flip flop
I was also thining about The Wait
"I got to go but my friend can stick around"

[stilltrucking]

Soozen btw
very interested in hearing what you have to write about karma
trying to decide what to eat
mingo was writing about refried beans
reading the label
a good cheap source of protein
why do the Mexicans have to refry their beans
can't they get it right the first time?

[SadLuckDame]

This book you'd mentioned. I had written it as a reminder in my notebook to look it up.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Stranger_(novel)

sooZen, may the weather be polite as you journey. You'll come home renewed in nature. Be safe, healthy, happy dear lil sooZen. You too trucker.

[stilltrucking]

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[Doreen Peri]

I don't understand.

What's with the code?

[stilltrucking]

For some reason I can't figure out right now
your blank text box reply reply reminds me of bit line from Jurassic park, where the raptor is stalking the great white hunter and he see's her too late. and his last words were
"clever girl"

I have not done your reply justice, nor soozen's
I am not in mood to focus on your words.

I do my best thinking before dawn. Around four and five in the morning. Just before they come to get Meursault and he looks out the cell window and feels the tender indifference of the world. If anything Camus is my hero, not Nietzsche. Nietzsche is my shrink.

Freud said that human behavior is over determined, hard to pin down our motives. Another reason I was thinking about backing out of this thread was its length. I do a lot of searching through the archives and some threads are a bitch. Hard to find a speicific post when the thread goes on for page after page.

Still not a good reason to leave.

I am going to read over your replies when I can focus. This day is shot. Or my brain is.

Nietzsche lived in the future.

Do you think I only live in the present, as Meursault? But, I don't, I live in past and present. I'm never planning future I s'pose, but I do live at least in both present and past, fully.

But how could I leave
when you are still posting to it.

Tomato soup. I feel fool
but tomorrow I start my beer and potato chip diet.
It would not be so bad getting so fat
but I am getting shorter too.
Almost two inches shorter than I was when I graduated high school
And I used to be circumcised too.

Talk at you later
thanks for taking an interest.
You can fuck with me anytime.
I think I have offended constantine
Man I love his poetry.

And I don't see smilegirl around
I worry I may have invaded her space
with my multiple replies.

I am so fucking vain I think that just because somebody stops posting for a while it is because of me. Or is that just paranoia?

[stilltrucking]

I was going to delete that doreen
I was looking at the source code for SLD's blank text box. To see if she used the center tags to do it.

Well I won't delete it now.




Her reply reminded me of the line from Jurassic park, where the raptor is stalking the great white hunter and he see's her too late. and his last words were "clever girl"

thanks for asking
thanks for reading
thanks for taking the time to comment
but most of all thank you for being you

[Doreen Peri]

I don't know why it's blank. I clicked EDIT (as an admin, I can click edit on anybody's post) ... and it says this....

This book you'd mentioned. I had written it as a reminder in my notebook to look it up.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Stranger_(novel)

sooZen, may the weather be polite as you journey. You'll come home renewed in nature. Be safe, healthy, happy dear lil sooZen. You too trucker.

The only difference is that in her post there are URL tags at the beginning and end of the URL link.

Really strange. When I kept the URL tags on there and tried to quote her, my post previewed as blank, also.

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