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by SadLuckDame » August 21st, 2011, 6:53 pm
It's the being of her too often in the crow's nest, and her not ever to shout about their long shadow form. What can hurt too deep, can hurt. She'd not say
until we were right on top them
with our fear they'll have us if we'll not have them.
They hit like boulders, cutting the ship bones and I'd cringe to hear those bodies break. Then always her nursing her crimson sided creatures, not to speak with us over days after-wards. Our schedules fulled up and mending our own, but I noticed, noticed her dropped edges, the rough knots on her skirt ties.
I'd muster enough strength to pull in the ribs with all the rope I could carry.
I'd splatter the hot tar, even let it burn me just to save ship,
to keep her on water.
Annie's torso,
with a mean French curve
that rounded half-hip and the lully shapes
at sweet bent knee-bone,
unless she went straight
to kick.
This happened.
In her rafters.
Her in high socks and corsets stitched
all keeping her upright, giving line
where not her lines exist,
she's such fog.
I'd hear her frighty whispers
calling all monstrous water-lurking creatures
with the scent of her praying lips,
they too bent, softly split
and mattered
the spook
way up top
over-looking the storm waters.
The waves abrupt to peel her away
from us.
I heard the waves collide dangerously near and to say to me, "Taking Annie this time, taking her time." When I looked up and she was not there to see, it was as if the night was with new moon.
There was nothing out there.
I'd pray, too.
I'd pray for her,
only I'd not go out with it on deck
to be heard, not like that.
I kept my tongue silent. Silent as her.
Instead I turned towards note-taking and writing.
I kept it all contained within my waisted coat pocket on manila bee papers, which I could lay down flat. I'd prop my fist there, holding against environment, the winds, the rain. It'd flex.
I could take it at night under a lit candle with the soft show of ink,
of what is made, unmade and done.
But, Annie
Annie was crazily farther away
and I worried to climb close enough
that she could jump,
if she was there,
if she was only asleep
from being a sight.
I'd stay awake picturing that she was up there
thinking just the same of me.
`Do you know, I was so angry, Kitty,' Alice went on...`when I saw all the mischief you had been doing, I was very nearly opening the window, and putting you out into the snow! And you'd have deserved it, you
little mischievous darling!
~Lewis Carroll