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[one of those jerks]

August 9th

I feel good
as if a great weight has been lifted off of me
I am going to quit my kvetching about war


I am over it
I am cured
War is good
War is love
War is jobs
War bless us

Amazing Grace, I have seen the light
Everything is on time on schedule
Walking the streets of Nagasaki with Ferlinghetti in 1945
I see the error of my ways
War is beautiful

Seriously
I am going to support our troops
War bless them

Our War which art on earth
forgive me my faithlessness
Bring us more death
The world is a beautiful place
And war is the crown of creation

War leadeth me into still waters

And when my task on earth is done,
When by War's grace the victory’s won:
E’en death’s cold wave I will not flee,
Since war through Jordan leadeth me

with apologies to Stephen Foster

[stilltrucking]

five am and I just woke up from a dream about intentions
someone in the dream asked me what my intentions in life were
and I said to keep on wiping my ass as long as I can
no sh*t that was the dream I just woke up from
then I read your poem just now and thought about Dread and things worse than death and the spider in Kierkegaard's outhouse.


It seemed to me that the guy in the dream used to work for Zero MOtor Freight and I was on a job interview.

[stilltrucking]

in the meantime California is more Hispanic then white
white women are just not doing their patriotic duty and having enough babies for the fatherland über Alice

While listening to the TV I heard somebody say that in cultures where there is a belief in the afterlife people have more babies. I think there is something wrong with that guys logic but logic is not my strong suit either

yes I know what Deutschland über alles means
Alice got hit by a Volkswagen.

[SadLuckDame]

Dear Jack,

when you come home from the war can you and I go on a date? Ya know, my first date should be with you in a truck or on the road somehow. But, I don't know the first thing about dating or war and I won't be able to have anymore babies...nothing like that. So it'd just simply be a first date. Tell me when you get back here.

Smiles,
me

[stilltrucking]

Money is tight, I promised I would send a donation to Lightning Rod and another to Doreen. In the mean time I feel guilty about posting anything else here till I come up with the dough to keep my promises. I finally got one of those nicotine inhalers that mingo used to to quit smoking. Today my fourth day without a cigarette. My cough from hell is still lingering. Still looking for a part time job. The brother in law is so out of it
it scares me
what would my sister do without him to take care of.

After the war we will all sail off into the sunset singing about a yellow submarine.

thanks for visiting this lunatic in his asylum dame.
I think I had a dreamabout you the other night
woke up from a dream this morning but I forgot it
a troubling dream
but you know I love all my dreams
good bad or indifferent
another life going on just below the surface .

[SadLuckDame]

I know about not being able to donate. Summer's rough on the pockets cause I go from having two jobs down to one and the one is partly partial, as in I can't even work right now or have monies since they put us on vacation. It is tough lucks.

Not gonna be paying half the bills this month.

I wish I were one of those helping out, too.
I have a neighbor who borrows from me a lot and it's to drink on, I knows it, only I can't go to her for paying me back any time soon. Being that she's bi-polar, in a crappy relation and prolly needs the drink to make it through the night. I don't knows, I only knows I can't ask.

The last time she was here and wanting a little help, she asked me for some money and told me I could hold on to her diamond until she paid back. I told her what was she thinking! a lot of bad people out there would take her diamond and keep it for the measly seven bucks she was borrowing and not give it back.
I want her to be o.k.

I want Doreen to be safe as well.
When I can I'm gonna.

I dreamt about you too...some time last week we were out walking.

[stilltrucking]

Charity begins at home they say.
Faith hope and charity

I been thinking about Mr Hunter a lot, every night when I make the rounds before I go to bed I think about him and how safe I felt when I spent the night at his house.

I keep saying I am only seventy, that ain't too old, that ain't too old, it is not too late, it is not too late, not too late.
Most of money going to my sister and brother in law.

I watched groundhog day again, I must have seen that movie ten times now.

My favorites I watch over and over
Life is Beautiful
The God's Must be Crazy
Laurel and Hardy
The Gangs of New York
makes me wish I was Irish and not a Jew.
Or at least makes me wonder what it would be like to be Irish.

[SadLuckDame]

Who is Hunter? I can only think 'Jack stayed with Hunter Thomas!'
Can't get it out of my head like that.

I'd talk more, but it's well past bed time. Gonna go to sleep thinking this stuffs.
Sleep well you.

[stilltrucking]

Uncle Bill
an honorary title he was the husband of Mrs Hunter, our Aunt Em, my mother's friend. He would go around the house at night before he went to bed checking all the doors and the stove and the furnace made sure everything was ship ship at night. I always slept well knowing he was around I must have been about five or six, it was right after the war. A scary time for a Jew boy in the promised land.
Rest in peace aunt em and uncle bill
my memory of you is a blessing to me.

good night amiga
thanks for being a cyber friend
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another day another deletion
had to delete this
from here

http://studioeight.tv/phpbb/viewtopic.p ... 8&start=30

sad article on the Grandmothers of Plaza de Mayo,

Interesting article on Libya
I liked the last line
"There is no end of history"

I am sure that oil had nothing to do with the Nato decision to bomb Libya
I am sure that we can trust John D Rockefeller even if he is dead, he is still right.
"The way to make money is to buy when blood is running in the streets" J. D. Rockefeller
Libya has lots of blood running in the streets so buy some Exxon stock if you can.

Another interesting bit in the article about Israel.
I don't think the author really has a grip on the Israeli mind set. He says Israel's attitude is immature Well maybe but only if a belief in a mighty smitey god is immature. That god of my mothers and fathers before me scares the bejeezus out of me. So I can understand that immaturity. I am not saying I agree with it, only that I understand the Masada mind set. Something like this...The N*zis were G*d's punishment on the Jews of the diaspora for living outside of the promised land. We must not live outside the Holy Land. Masada must not fall again. I have read that the founders the modern state of israel intended it to be a secular state. Boy oh boy,. There is no end to history, history is a bitch with an ice pick*.

I was also interested in the bit about the Ottoman Empire.
It always cheers me up when I read something about the Ottoman Empire. Who remembers them? It seems to me that the after shocks of its collapse still reverberate today. . History is a bitch, there is no end to it.

*a long time ago qat (revolution rabbit) wrote that language is a bitch with an ice pick. I liked that line a lot, history is a bitch too.
sorry about the ramble.
When ever I read anything about Israel I think of j
for me the holy land is the ground she walks on.

[SadLuckDame]

http://www.abuelas.org.ar/english/history.htm
It breaks my heart too, to think about these Grandmothers wanting to locate the children and grandchildren who were pulled from them in such a crazy way. How these types of situations happen, especially in high numbers and get carried out, is horrible. I hope they will find more of their family members.
This is tragic.

[gypsyjoker]

Look time getting back to you on the tragic. I liked that bit that jan wrote about jack a lot

that's all I try and do too

I like how Henry Miller can write with out quoting Nietzsche, they say Miller was not a great writer of the twentieth century, but others say he was one of the greatest, so who am I to compare myself to Anais Ninn's main squeeze.

Nietzsche wrote such a beautiful book I thought, "The Birth of Tragedy" from the spirit of...?

I got this job as an online catalog sales agent. The clothes I am selling are from a upscale catalog. I am supposed to build rapport with the callers, mostly women, personalize the calls to increase $ales. I got as much in common with those women as a pearl onion and a maraschino cherry. But I try, whore that I am.

So I am talking about a waterproof ski jacket with a her, she wants to be reassured it is not some bullsh_t "water resistant" schmata that will leave her wet to the skin and chilled to the bone like Esther Greenwood walking on that beach in New England in a raincoat she bought because the sales clerk assured her it was 100% waterproof. So I mentioned that scene in the novel to her which was not the happy talk I am supposed to talk. I blew the sale I should have been talking about osmosis and water pressure and stuff like that.

My Rose of San Antone said I was honest to a fault.

But anyway I did not sell her the ski jacket, she said she would send her husband to the store to check it out in spite of my attemps to assure her it would keep her warm and dry to a depth of three hundred meters....

[SadLuckDame]

Hmm, well she doesn't ski, I don't imagine, but if it's cold and frosty...that'd be it. Tell her to get the waterproof jacket, we just don't know what a cloud might do and I'm just saying this from a not like of freezy weather conditions.
I want warmth, too.

I talk to sales guys who sell catalogs, as a little to the side note.
There's this one who says buy for features and not for style much. ppp
He likes to sell me on the extra pockets, the zip-line zippers and all the shabangs for the bucks. Meaning, it must hold up for a long few weeks of camping on mount ta-bang. If ya know whats I'm hinting at.

But, I prolly argue with sales guys likes him about style. It's the visual and artsy that is the real-deal selling point. It could be the deciding point after first noticing the features., I am happy in silk long johns.

Something really terrible happened to me today, Jack. Seriously, I felt embarrassed, which doesn't happen often. I spelled sandwich wrong and wrote sandwitch...in front of adults at work. Oh man! I knew it was incorrect as I was writing it, only I had to hurry to write it and had no time to think it through firstly. It was knowing it was wrong, but only having the first thoughts to make time with. Urgh and cry.

I wouldn't have noticed years ago, but now it's enough to spook me. Started a whole bad-azzed train down the tracks. Was thinking about all the scenarios where time was going to force me to choose only the first thoughts, only the instincts, the habits and bah! I'm freaked.

I bet you do good with those women, maybe you are like Henry and might be able to keep the woman's eye on ya. I don't know.

[SadLuckDame]

Maybe when he's lying to her
she thinks of a glass of warm milk
and finds it easier to sleep.

[jackofnightmares]

She only bought the raincoat cause the sales clerk assured her it was one hundred percent water proof which is bull shit I think unless it was a scuba suit. I been editing the above post a lot. Not sure if you read the bit about the lying sales clerk in the bell jar.

Yeah hate when I make sandwitches too, sometime I weep quietly into my pillow. sorry dame one of the blessings of longevity I guess, it takes so much to make me weep these days. In days gone by I would weep at news reels from world war one. those herky jerky black and white films of men dying by the thousands. I used to get embarrassed by my tears, was i a girly man? No one nice thing about being an old fart is we don't embarrass much. I hope you recover from your writing error. I am glad someone hear takes pride in their writing,



I got not much interest in women's clothes except for thos long black tight skirts that linda dembromowitz wore back in my seventh grade home room class. It took me years to figure out why I would walk around with tented pants every morning.

[SadLuckDame]

I don't feel terrible for being foolish by spelling incorrectly around you,
but then I guess I think about it inside like you'd be forgiving since you know me.
Who knows, but I know you make light fun at my errors, which only makes me poke you back...I take it light, all in fun.

Guess that's why I think you're intj. Watching them remark and flit about, gets me to think of you like those black crows in older looney-toon cartoon days, the ones that were up on the telephone wire.