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[stilltrucking]

Doreen asks really good questions. She keeps me honest with myself.

[the mingo]

I'm waitin' on the mail, Jack. Got a package coming that's been on one strange journey getting to me. Checked the tracking # this morning and it has finally made it to the Oswego post office. So I should have it today or tomorrow. I like Doreen but I never felt an easy rapport with her, we have had some moments though.
Just got back from taking the dog for a walk - tell ya I had a dog? Yeah, well, I didn't want the beast, said no right off the bat but I must have been in a less-than-a-man mode when I said it so now there is a big Black & Tan coonhound laying on the floor next to my chair here. He's got a pedigree no less with papers to back it up. Dog has way more class in his bloodlines than I do. This guy is BIG.
He's gentle though and well-behaved. Still, I have not the money to take care of him - if he gets sick or hurt there is no way I can take him to a vet - I can't even go to a dentist for my teeth, where the hell am I going to get the money to take him to a vet? God Bless It I said NO! Two women did this. The owner, Nancy's niece never approached me face-to-face. She got after Nancy - came through the back door snaky as the old serpent in the garden. Ain't the dog's fault.
Ya know, my firm belief is that's it's the people that need to be on the leash & not the dog. Can ya see me on my way to Mt. Zion, getting to the top and looking up into the expanse and saying to the Creator, "Hey, I think ya made a mistake here!"

yeah, right.

I was not looking for a dog - now I have one that has been abandoned to me.
Been looking for someone to take him but no go so far. I'm already getting attached & damnit. He was a bit fearful when he first got here and when you went to pet him he would flinch some and lower his head so I know that his former owners, while maybe not outright abusive, still thought nothing of whacking him hard on his head. I hate that shit, Jack.

it's the people that need to be on a leash.

[the mingo]

PS - I keep going like this I'm gonna be the spittin' image of John Lee Pettimore, same as my Daddy and his Daddy before.
I already have a coonhound.

[stilltrucking]

I am about half way through it. I read up to the part about the vet bills and the dog. I got to go cut the grass I am afraid if I read anymore i will wind updoing the keyboard jitterbug for the rest of the afternoon, I just want to mention a friend of mine from Dallas and how he delt with sick dogs. He went to the farm store out in the boonies, they carry all the meds, maybe somehow he got them with out an Rx, maybe you don't need an Rx for animal meds, I dont know, but I watched him nurse a sick looking mangy bulldog back to health. When he first found that dog it like it was about to expire. Like the kindest thing would have been to shoot it. But he nursed it back to health thanks to the farmstore.




back at you later

[stilltrucking]

Nothing to do with nothing I been puttin this together, these random beads on a string, and the thread gets broken now and then

the "beholder's share."

just run across that bit
in a book about art and science called "the age of insight" catchy title.

Meantime, back in Oswego
I am looking for one of your digital pictures, I know I saved it some where, I tell I can see it on a T shirt mingo, I wonder how much it would cost to make one? I got no idea of the technology involved but it seems to me I have see booths in flea markets that print tee shirts for you while you wait.

"I wish I was half the man my dog thinks I am." TM

[the mingo]

Thx Jack for the info - the two guys who I thought were the best chance for wanting the dog didn't pan out. Looks like he's mine & Nancy's. Got to find out how much a dog license is here in the great state of Yew Nork and how much the shots will be. Looks like I'm gonna be John Lee Pettimore's second cousin three times removed after all. I got a Cherokee & a coonhound - good start ya think?

Read your reply on the poem - i have some sympathy for the Egyptians too and God does not need any defense of me for his actions but I will say this - it's not like the Holy One of Israel came out of nowhere and dumped it on the Egyptians.
Before each plague God sent Moses to Pharaoh first and said to Moses, " Go to Pharaoh and say.... he gave warning first & time to consider that warning and then he brought about exactly what he said he would. Saw a program once that attempted to explain the series of plagues by natural means - of course they didn't even try to explain that last one - didn't go near it. But what they didn't say anything about was that each plague was preceded by prophecy and how that prophecy was fulfilled to the letter.

Got to take the dog out in the woods. Catch ya later, Jack.

[stilltrucking]

Sorry I deleted the reply to the poem, it was so idiosyncratic and Jewcentric. That is twice I deleted it I re posted it to your lingo forum
RE: passover poem

a tin drum
a tick tock
kick me to satori

I never mourned for the Egyptian first born
till now
this holiday won't end
still got four days to go
like waiting for the other shoe to drop
what new act of loving kindness will God bestow on the Egyptian children

mingo wrote:

to save you from
always looking behind you

amen on that
Gotdam that feeling of being pursued by monsters from the id

As far as the Egyptians and the Hebrew children, I wish them both well,.
What comes round goes round. That is why the ultra orthodox Jews are so determined to do G d's will.
Oh well, maybe the beginning of folly is the fear of G d.

I always liked the ancient Egyptians myself. I know very little about the modern state of Egypt or Israel either for that matter. Seems like the Egyptians were able to hold onto their homeland for over five thousand years. We Jews have not been so fortunate. Maybe god will give us an asteroid next time inSsome obscure corner of the solar system where we can feel safe.



A lot of comfort to be found in the Bible
I still find comfort in it, but also much than angers me.
I expect to be struck down like Nietzsche any day now.
Courage, what put the ape in apricot
Some people could say it is going by the book
others blame it on Entropy, drugs, sex, and rock and roll
Only prophet I have heard in the last 100 years is Nietzsche. I wonder if he was a Jew too.
Don't mind me mingo, I don't want no truck with Biblical prophecy.
I guess I don't want to give it lip service. I do not take it lightly.
My faith is that my intent is to live the good life. fight the good fight
and die happy and grateful.


Man I am tired
only thing that makes today worth anything to me is my grandniece

[the mingo]

Just got home & couldn't decide between a bowl of mini-wheats or triskets & swiss cheese. crackers & cheese won out...or at least took first place. Outage is over, lot quieter at work. Your grandniece has the same look on her face that you do in those old photos of yours.

[stilltrucking]

amor fati
over the years my signature has become more and more like Crazy Mike's
How many years I lived in dread of being his son

I never had the courage to look back because I was running scared, running away from my pursuers. Those monsters I conjured up for myself.



It was worse when I came up any cellar stairway, I could feel it behind me ready to reach out a claw and drag me back down. Scared man, hair standing up scared, this till my first trip. maybe 1971 or 1972 not sure, you have to pardon me I did a lot of drugs back then. It was going so fast for awhile, then it slowed down the past couple years I have been able to revisit with my memory of father and feel compassion for him, and the stench of the dead rats is gone. I owe a lot to Nietzsche and Jesus.
And dr Hofmann's Elixir
Got me through some long nights'
through . .
"the long dark tea time of the soul"

Monsters from the Id is from Forbidden Planet, a pretty neat flick, I watched again last year for the first time in fifty years. It was still pretty good but not as good as when I was 16.


so much commentary here.

LuLu got cancer, trying to make her comfortable.
Dog's, they always break your heart in the end.''
random rambles r me

Lulu April 11, 2012

[the mingo]

Your father played Fischer to a draw? You wouldn't have the moves to that game by any chance would ya? When i get a drawn game it bugs the hell out of me - all that work for nothing. Course I don't turn no nose up on them if I'm in a tight spot. The only draw i get a charge out of is perpetual check - got a guy down to work i play and when i can stymie him with a perpetual check it drives him up the wall.

Man. your father played you with his back to the board and called out the moves to you? Talk about intimidation!

I had a time finding folks to play until I joined the Navy. A lot of the Filipino's played chess and they played it quick & well. Cut your game all to hell in a blink of an eye. When my ship got homeported up to 'Frisco I discovered street chess. Man what days those were! I wouldn't mind that scene again.

[stilltrucking]

I found the game once in the chess federation archive, I will see if i can find it again. Fischer was just a kid. I think crazy mike was pleased with his drawl.

Poor old Bobbie, talk about crazy dogs.

I been feeding her steak, every meal like a last meal, got dam dogs.
They always break your heart. She is still in good spirits happy to be a doggy I think.

Got to think about the end, but not yet, she still seems pretty happy.

[the mingo]

Thanks for looking for that game, Jack, and i hope ya find it. dog just woke everybody up around here cause he had to go out. Nancy went back to bed but now I'm awake. Five in the morning. Got myself a cleaning kit for my ruger .22 yesterday. Been meaning to do that for a couple of weeks now - might even get to cleaning it sometime today. Yeah, damn dogs.

[stilltrucking]

The only thing I found was this link to a defunct website.

Fischer to a draw. In round 1 of the 1956 US Amateur Championship, Fischer drew with Michael Tilles http://www.geocities.com/siliconvalley/ ... ischer.htm ...

In the meantime got dam people too.

the bear talks to her in baby talk, tells her he will be coming with her soon and he will see her up there soon.

got dam
idiosyncracy cause I just can't bring myself to god dam anything, except the pusher man.

i think to myself but do not say
oh man don't die on me
I don't want to carry the load by myselfi
but the the load ain't heavy she's my sister
they been married twice now to each other all told
she tried so hard to keep him alive

I been lucky to do it without a wife
I dread a future here without the bear
hard enough living here with another man to share her resentment
any woman's resent ment
god played a dirty trick on woman kind.

lucky for us there are still a few women who think kindly of men, stupid as me are.

[SadLuckDame]

It isn't always easy, but I guess men are a great deal better in my mind/heart than they had been.

I have always understood dogs, though.