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[creativesoul]

my friend she takes
stuff for mental health issues
but she stops taking them
freaks out
returns to her head shrinker
says things like ' i love my shrink'
on the high days

when shit doesnt 'work'
she adds to the other medication
i see her saying
i make this ok
cuz this is not ok over here
paying no rent
foaming at the brain

i let that mother fucker in my head once
the guy with the cracker voice that keeps repeating side effects
like over and over weedwhacking the sensativities in my mind
killing off anything that could grow there
bugs of nervousness
fly in the mouth which speaks of nothingness
air ... dead cells
have some more anti-depressants
dont want to go outside?
i wanted to erase this scar
dont look-do not SEE WHAT YOU ARE...
FIT IN, STRIVE, RUSH, INTENSELY FEEL
ALL LIKE A VERY BAD MOVIE REEL
maybe if you could disappear
the pills didnt work
go back to the shrink alice
one more small pill more large pill
fuck me hard
take me from behind
make me feel something
anything
cigarette
endless staring
the stench of nicotine and mental health offices
the worn down paint
of many insane people scratching names on a wall no one will ever really read
bathrooms of depression
fears on glass you cannot see out of
i say FUCK YOUR PILLS
FUCK THE MEN THAT MADE THEM
AND FUCK THE ONES THAT DO NOT UNDERSTAND WHAT IS REALLY HAPPENING TO THOSE UNDERGOING THESE SIDE EFFECTS
they give drugs and dope to kids
they molest and disrespect the sacred
those many birds were going to chirp and shriek for many moons
best to go where i could see it
i had to leave
like a thousand hummingbirds went off in my head