Bandit Notions

[the mingo]

is that a real cat? Is his name Martin? hey went to the site but couldn't take the virtual tour because I need a plug-in or some such shit which put the kabash on that because I download these things and they don't go nowhere - checked out some other sites too - i weren't trying to talk ya out of it neither - just pokin' some fun at ya & havin' some fun while I did - so where you gonna put this? and how you gonna combine this with a treehouse? I think that's what ya meant - is the cat gonna live there with ya and is that a real cat & is his name Martin? If I had a cat, which I never will, but if I did suffer a cat to live with me, i'd name him "Martin Poloroid" after a guy i knew in the service who flew a helicopter camel with a decal of the Canadian flag stuck to the forehead of the camel right above his eyes. The cockpit on this camel was open design so Martin had to wear goggles and a scarf just like Snoopy & the Red Baron. Martin was cool - i liked him - Martin was from Min-ne-so-ta and had this Canadian hottie for a girlfriend who lived just across the highline -

Damn that yurt idea gives me ideas - or maybe fantasies is more like it - if I lived in a yurt - hey the Mongolians don't call 'em yurts - they call them ghans or gans - anyways if i lived in a yurt i'd have to have at least three wives - one to herd the livestock - one to do the cookin' and one to sit in my lap - and i'd rotate their duties every week - hell if it was good enough for the Khan then it's good enough for lil' 'ol precious me -

hey never mind about if the cat is real - i just thought of something - maybe you sent the pic of the cat in a symbolic sense - am i bingo? yeah yeah I know - all mens the same -
pitiful, ain't it?

[creativesoul]

I like that cat- but it does not belong to me

[the mingo]

it is a good looking animal

[creativesoul]

here on the farm- out of the range of all the people that visit which is awesome really- i guess- it has taken me years to have a sense of humor about people-i dont think they are that funny really- but i know how to laugh about it- ya should of seen the old bitties having lunch next to me and my young woman friend about to burst with child- i see it as the next phase- i love my gray hair- and i want to be eccentric- - was thinking maybe i could get a guy to build me some frames- and i could paint a painting the size of the hay barn- no hay in there right now- it has been sold- so it is space- maybe a garage spring coil with a woven chair to bounce in?

i could give this all up and go work with homeless kids- but why?
i did that= i worked with the really coo coo birds- NASA WE GOT TROUBLE kids-
they are just like everyone else really- just dont know when to shut up- they gotta tell everybody- I FEEL- i think- i am-
LOST-
LOCKED UP in a juvenille detention center- yep
i wondered really- why they were playing video games for 8 hours at a stretch= why they had bribes to get the kids motivated- it was just sick- and i guess - it still is-
and the kids- hopefully got new video games with all that non profit money

[creativesoul]

well the dating service got me a six foot hawaiian guy calling on the phone- an owl came down the driveway with me this evening- it was like my grandmother in a way- all those little owls around her house- mmm i guess she is looking out for me- i think that is kind of funny-i guess that i asked for that- maybe when i was younger and dreaming big-
he is six foot tall- he says-
ya know a good deal of the world s men are under six feet- ask me if i care? yes i do- i do not like hanging out with short men-
it makes me crazy

[creativesoul]

a while back- issac- had three wives and 13 children- he lived at badagry beach- he was my friend- he said it 'was plenty'- i have found that men cannot keep even one woman satisfied - let alone a harem-nice try though- if we were a more agricultural society - that would work- but i guess monsanto thought of all that- way back- i used to eat 'starbursts' until i felt like there were brightly colored squares living in my body-
i told the last husband- that laughy taffy was not allowed in the house-DANGEROUS - hazzmatts

[creativesoul]

coffee- and accupuncture- that is today- the woman with the metal in her neck- that just got it taken out- is meeting with a healer today-

[creativesoul]

by now- i have spent 9000 in tents with two sons- and well- i dunno- i have bad tent karma- my wolf walked thru my groovy ten person tent- i am tall- once i lined a tent with coffee and threw the cup yonder- no one has seen it since- it was 'the perfect cup of coffee' and well- maybe there is only a fantasy about that-
i am sure that when this happens - i will be on a ladder painting a giant canvas- and he will walk in- who ever he is- sounds like the beginning of a bad second act - if something doesnt happen right about there-
so anyways- i am just a woman- and i know the plus and minus of that-my engine runs fine solo- and no harem for me

[silent woman]

just a woman
just a man
just a wife
just a husband
just a sister'
just a brother
just a father
just a mother
Just a daughter
just a friend

just life

[the mingo]

that's some complex formatting - what with paint & ladders & all & promised people walkin' in - threat of gravity too - now i got to get some coffee - i chased a coyote once - a little scrawny nebraska coyote - clean across a parking lot - little bastard kept me hoping against hope too by staying just ahead of me - all i got was winded - gave up chasing coyotes in my bare feet that very day and ain't run for one since -

as far as satisfying a woman - i don't even try - not since the early days anyway - it came to me quick that woman was just like man & can't be satisfied - all i do is unbank the fire here and there and let nature do the rest - just like nature intended - hell it ain't hardly no work t'all - most everybody nearly on fire to begin with and the danger you run is having to work to put out a fire not start one -

healer smealer - it's loneliness making sick as a sign - the healer is about someone paying attention , company ya know - healer's job to provide attention - mostly in the form of listening & touch - both of them pretty much same thing - scatter the loneliness then sickness scatters with it - mankind so lonely he got huge armies to keep him company - makes himself government too - gets married once or any number of times all because of ache of heart - hell we ought to take a lesson from the monkeys we so proud being the descendants of - the monkeys groom each other - they touch each other they fuss over each other they make a special out of it and everybody does everybody - the good shit goes all round - ever see a monkey that has just been groomed? sucker is laying there eyes closed almost passed out and will sleep right in front of a bunch of lions he's so satisfied, contented, & secure -
and if the lions do attack him for snackin purposes that just groomed monkey goin' to monkey heaven with a smile in his monkey bones -

do-whacka-doo

there's a commercial lodge up on Tug Hill Plateau and it's all yurts, ghans, & gers - whatever - i've seen it from the woods - they all look like prehistoric symmetrical turtles on the ridgeline - it's a cool sight from the woods

[the mingo]

hell Jack our posts must have crossed while i was posting to cs - you got that write - just life is what it is

[creativesoul]

yeah i was thinking[uh oh] that i would go stay in one of those treehotels- i saw one where there is live music right there- so i would go for that-at any rate- before i do it- i mean - you can make walls - or a kitchen- but i am sort of treehouse kitchen thing-buy a resturant booth on craigs list and put it in the tree-
anyway- i was just an artist- he was a musician- and i dunno about fires being put out- but - i can be sure i do not know how they get started- you dont even know it until you are consumed by flames-
or later - you think- that guy was the greatest ever-i have fond memories of the people that really touched me- but- i dont like people messing with my hair- massage? yeah- that works- but- dont pick on me like a monkey-
i do like how limber most monkeys are- the way they swing from tree branches with thier tails-
monkey talk- garage talk-
satisfied is vague- for some it is - nothing really- for other s that really need that love- it isnt easy for the ones that dont-
i was a wife- and each time i thought it was forever- i was broken hearted when it was OVER and sad- but healing- i know it is real- i have seen it felt it- KNOWN IT - or i would be dead now-but i seem to have nine lives-i am sure that i drove them crazy- that i wanted more than they could give- and well- and so on and so on-

[the mingo]

it's stacking up to be no toast & peanut butter for me this morning - my fault probably for letting the bread run out - should have got out last night & got some but i cast myself in front of the 'puter to dick with words - no bread now because of my evil lolly-gagging habits and a bent to follow what is fun even if it means work - who was it said man does not live by bread alone? o yeah, Moses, that jive ol' Hebrew - staff in one hand & God talkin' in his other ear - rockin' the Sinai for 40 years other side of the Red sea - it's rainin' now but the lust for bread may drive me out into it on my bike - thru the woods & over the river to see Stewart's - they always got bread no matter what so far - sell ya ice cream or coffee too - ol' Moses never had those - Ol' Moses should have waited to get born in 'Merica - i mean this the place, ain't it?

[creativesoul]

in clatskanie oregon= there were two deaths because men fell off ladders- school teacher and ? i forgot now- but there was a period when people wouldnt get on a ladder without a spotter- it would seem= people were a bit spooked-
but my friend that takes first place in hatchett throwing every year is an arborist- and has a bucket- ya know - like the phone men-anyway- i figure with a wall that size- clouds and sky in the bucket on the upper half- then- where we can reach- ha ha ha more detail- i do not think i am the first painter to get ideas like this-
or the last-
ha ha ha coffee is so good this morning- uganda- from the astoria coffee company- i love them- always have- they are just really interesting people- found their niche- coffee and tea and erotic spices- best vanilla and french presses- COFFEE--for sale----------saffron- i am convinced that those women harvesting saffron in the mountains are carriers of hidden medicines
'healer smealer"?mmm- once this friend of mine mocked the spirit world and got sent sideways - she went from being a weathly landowner in hawaii to a poor woman owing the state money- she thought money gave her power- apparently she was wrong-
i think about things that i wish i didnt think about- like gordon walking past the sign that said kapu at the big island- climbed up on the sacred thing- and slid down and for the next 9 years he had knee trouble- even longer-because i bailed-because i had to follow the kids- even though it took twenty years to understand everything- ya know- maybe i still do not understand- now- i think about what the men went thru- in their own lives- while we were together and before we ever were- like a birth mark or something- some of it= was not ever going away- i will be in my bear cave today- yesterday in the vet s office- i swear- it is like a carnival in there-old ladies and thier care givers and the lil dog- wow- stories- the lonely diude with a millon puppies- wow
i made it all day without bread- and then at night i ate toast - i have to quit bread- i am allergic to it- but i love it-
sometimes i think we are too addicted to food- need more water and air and sunshine and teas-exotic teas-

[creativesoul]

i made it so far- no bread- i had a tortilla- with avacado and cheese- and a whole bunch of claiflower- i burned the rice- still cleaning that pan- dog s leg is healing- was an easquite day- crisp and juicy like the washinton apples- makes ya want to slice it nice and put it on a cute lil plate- i had three lil cookies- yea that was kind of strange-
i wake up from what seems like a trance in the sun- and the cat is doing some kind of magic all up and down- then plops herself next to me- with the dogs- some very strange music is on the radio- jesus stuff- i let it roll- funny- that clean feeling you get sometimes- not from a bar of soap- today was a day like that - where you sense beginnings- and it seems to grow on you- lil by little = like a vine