Bandit Notions

[the mingo]

sometimes i'm in an entirely different mode - rained out today - guess i might as well face the facts and put the bikes up for the winter - only been riding since July - got more memories stored up from all that than I care to sort out - mist out there tonight along with the rain - cars coming along the road-their headlights look like they are coming out of some kind of ghost dimension - i think that might prove to be all of us - we came out of a ghost dimension to arrive here in the spirit world - you spoke earlier about me mocking the spirits - and i do mock - not so much the spirits but us - because I have the notion clear as crystal that this is the spirit world and to act or think there is another besides this one is to add an absurdity to a wonder without it being necessary - and if i am wrong about this then i won't be any more right than anyone else about it - you ever find you have disappeared something from yourself? I did that twice today with a different item each time - it happens frequently these days - something i just had in my hand not two seconds ago and now i can't find it or know what i did with it - is it possible we can do it with things much larger? why do we call our set of personal memories "ours" as if that were unquestionably true? think i'll bugger off for now ...

[creativesoul]

yeah i have created door ways so i could find my way back- it is a cat napping day- intermitent sleep= i go to the gym tommorow- the whole crew will be here while i am siaking in it- hot tub...
i guess i just had to do this cat thing-
but- really- now-
i gotta eat ice cream

[the mingo]

Cat-naps! Zipper dreams! the old store has everything just as the owner had left it! my mind is playing the whirlwind! or is it my mind ? - some days i climb the hill - other days i go around it -
cognitive abilities have been ascribed to me but i don't believe they took - children are members of beehives intensely engaged with the gathering of pollen - upon reaching adulthood their productive lives are over and they become useful for mating only - for this the theory of love has been invented and is sustained by the storytellers whose main activity tends toward the cohesive realms - i think i'm zinging the fringe -

[creativesoul]

i guess the ice cream was the best i ever had- salt caramel gelato- and yes- it is sometimes the best thing ever- stories could be told about how that rolls down a throat - that is parched= needing deep kisses- lies a dark hunger-peaceful drifting from country to sea
imagine a story told that isnt so gold- but very very old-

[creativesoul]

Snake eyes is on with nicolous cage- I am waiting for the frost to melt on my bulldog Tacoma - scared of snow and ice

[the mingo]

spitting snow here all day - and strong northwest winds - put plastic up on the windows - it always amazes me what a diff that makes - wind still blowin now and bringin out the creaking of this old place - plus we block off the upstairs - trying to keep cozy cozy - got ice cream out in the freezer - nothing fancy and don't know if I could make out of it the erotic excursion you just did

[creativesoul]

i might have to put plastic on these windows- but i got my trusty electric heater and some herbs to keep me warm- i swear- it has been a journey- was in portland today- the giant bridges- the buildings- and the people- at that victorian house where the meetings are- ... so sad- but i got something to offer- HOPE- i guess=

[creativesoul]

i made it until ten last night when i spotted the culprit- the toaster! i used to never allow those things in my house- makes it too easy for us grazers-this relationship with food- it is like taking a monster for a walk each day-
bread should be under lock and key with me-
i quit smoking but one a day
like a celebration
and now the food calls me-
even considered becoming a pastry chef i like it so much- how am i going to do this with rice flour and almond flour- LOOK TO THE EAST-
they got the spices and herbs going on-- and those nice silk robes- and they talk kind of funny- but ya get used to it-
the cat has entered my room=
a barn cat gone domestic-sits in my window facing east=
there is cocnut milk in the kitchen- and aparagas-
doesnt sound right- black beans- barley? gads it is time for an american express fucking dinner already=poverty sucks

[creativesoul]

viet namese cooking uses quite a bit of rice flour

[the mingo]

bread in most any form will hook me as quick or quicker than any other form of evil - i'd be the roly poly hurdy gurdy rollin out the door if I worked in a bakery which i have thought of doing more than once - i love toasters english muffins pies first & cakes when i can't get pies - flatbreads fluffy breads no yeast loads and yeast up the whatsis - i'm bona fide bread junkie - lust in the dough

[creativesoul]

-------i made it thru the day with out the bread until late at night where i ate sahew butter and jalepeno jelly and snuggled up in my black panther blanket- that to me is heavenly- that blanket is so soft- i wear a scent that is supposed to attract love- and the bad things i was experiencing are from wheat- it is funny- but i could eat = a whole bunch of sour dough- ANYTIME- with the load of pasta

[the mingo]

pasta rips me too - just ate a ... hey we gotta quit all this food talk - every time we do I end up pulling daring daylight cavalry attacks on the kitchen -

[the mingo]

... and the only scented product i use is old spice aftershave from time to time - but i'm sure they have messed with the original recipe - it smells more like everything else now - that plastic fake goat scent that men's products have all thru that market now - and the last thing i want is to be attracting love in any way shape or form - my teeth are falling out and my farts are being produced by a 62 year old system that turns them out in flat/dry format - not fresh and rich anymore -

[creativesoul]

You mongo- bring out the best in me- I wake up and it is as if you left a rose and a note on the pillow- I can smell the manly smell- which I like-because my mind can manufacture smells and - live in those worlds- i paint things that somehow tell me things- and i am on that misson today= room mate left- and i can make a mess if i want to- cats away the mice will play-
been talking about that big canvas awhile now-but this morning- i am headed to the carpet factory for remnants- freezing in my room- and it is sunny out- still little minnie ice crytsals on all the blades of grass- i am ready for forest green carpet in my room- it will seem like a lawn when everything else is white-or gray

[creativesoul]

but that is why it is so beautiful - because i will never know what is wrong with you- what you look like when you are sick- and best of all- when you cheat- i will never know- or would i? and i know-.. what is cheating? i dunno- i only know what it feels like [these days] to wish for love at 56- that is kind of stupid if you ask me- because most of my frenz can be royal pains in the arse- so i guess that is true of everybody- i wonder if like how that have those retarded porn movies of all thse girls lifting their shirts and yelling-bare breasted at a video camera- i wonder- i dont think i missed a thing- i had a guru when i was 17- he was a kid- prem watt- he gave me these meditaion techniques- and since then- i dunno- it has been wierd- i just drank cinamon charged electric juice- and wow- i dunno why modern medicine is so screwed up- i gotta go to the voo doo woman at least once a month and have her stick big assed neddles in me just to function-! and well- i have ingested all kinds of herbal things- and = really now i am onto algae- one spoonful and some water and you are good to go- better get used to algae- from the looks of texas and fracking- there might not be drinking water-

it may be a luxzury that we will look back on- turning on the tap- and water comes out- i am thinking that maybe - it is going to be wells- on private land soon- no fracking around here- they might shoot you