Bandit Notions

[creativesoul]

It is a beautiful day

[the mingo]

I love shipwrecks - like junk cars too - used to be open junkyards around here when i was a kid - they were always evocative to me - and I'd watch them thru the turn of the seasons - winter covered with snow - spring, all the mud & slop - summer with the tall grass the cars almost losing themselves in it - autumn with the leaves decorating the rusty bodies - most of them are gone now due to laws from three different levels of gov't - but some exist yet though you can't see them behind their tall fences - I like finding abandoned cars out in the woods - rare these days but I know where some are at because I have more than a passing acquaintance with the woodlands & forests around here - i know where one is fairly close to the lodge here - been where it's at so long it is sinking into the earth like a shipwreck - a rare one too for these days - a '49 or '50 Merc with the split two piece windshield - when i first came upon it i named it the General George Armstrong Custer car - it's in that rare moment where you can still know it's a car but the disintegration is well along so that it is turning into something else - when the deer hunting for Jesus boys have finished the season & are gone from the woods I will get a pic of it for ya - won't be 'til after Xmas though - wait, I may have some older pics of it on file - hold on ... yeah do have one - taken autumn of 2012 i believe - i came over this ridge and there it was at the bottom - i think it was dragged or driven to the top of the ridge & then given a push - it lies between the bottom of the ridge and the edge of the marshland beyond - the deterioration has been rapid this past year though and it don't quite look like this anymore - i'll get a more recent photo when the deer hunters clear out at the end of december - thx for the shipwreck shot

i'll never know anything about you either - the best things or the worst things - the beautiful or the ugly - or any of the small moments where you are really you - the context of actual experience is not present - so anything is possible - unlike the real thing -

[the mingo]

. . . that old abandoned car is quite the poem now, ain't it ?

[creativesoul]

I WAS kissing in a car that looked like that- and it brought back the sweetness of youth for me-how cars can turn a woman on- wow i can see that baby in her prime- all sweet with paint- smelling like pepermint candy and lipstick= and face powder and high heeled leather- couldnt wait to get those shoes off- it would seem that was true in many ways- the car- seems to purr- even while sleeping there-
with all of its dreams of love and it s family history and then finally the gasp and the last ride - with love-they put her there- where the bad car crunch people couldnt make her into a reeses piece-
ya know- i am not rich- but i think we should write a book- just like what were doing now-
i dunno- it seems kind of interesting= we could make any story we wanted- there was a few that i liked- i love the book 'prayer for owen meany' i think it rocks- by john irving- i am a nut for louside elderidge- 'painted drum' - i can merely aspire to write like that- the way they tell the story is - EVERYTHING- recemtly a friend wrote a book- and wanted people to order it- i read the first few paragraphs- and then well- it lost me- he is too 'wordy' - and i couldnt do it-
but the kind conversational type writing - where it is easy to read- and there is no confusion about what is being discussed - works for many people-

the algae thing - mmm- so where is that car? what state- i wont tell the junkyard dogs- but really- it look like the woods here kind of- seems a lil eastern- [trees are smaller] we have really big assed trees- there is a huge one that is honored as the biggest spruce-
ill try to send you a picture-
that ship is out at the coast- i love it= it seems like you can see the captain saying'im going down with the ship' - i dunno maybe not- but it has a vibe- a smile in the sun-

[the mingo]

I think we are writing a book - it's taking shape all by itself - right here

just got back from a walk in the snow coming off Lake Ontario - took the dog out - we usually walk the woods but deer season keeps us to the roads - most hunters make sure of their target but some get anxious & happy 'bout it finger on the trigger - so we stick to the roads ... that big tree ya spoke of - i'd like to see it - my last ship was homeported out of the naval base in Oakland on 'Frisco bay - every weekend i didn't have duty i'd drive up the coast goin' north - used to camp in the redwood groves along the way - loved it & the big-assed trees - the woods you see in the pic of the car are only 'bout 50 years old - what happened is this area was once heavily farmed - small farms mostly - when people could make a living here - old growth forest was cut back by the first farmers back in the 1700's and they kept expanding - but that way of life began changing around 1920 and the depression years hurried that along - the guys that came back from WW2 weren't always interested in keeping the "family farm" going ... there were still working farms here whe i was growing up but it was guys who wouldn't give up or didn't know what to give up to - that lasted 'til they died or were carted off to "nursing homes" - when they were gone the forest began to come back - there are older trees but not many here & there - the property where the car is I figure stopped running dairy cattle probably very late 60's or early 70's - there is a huge ridge across the swamp from where the car sits left by the glaciers of the last ice age - too steep to be farmed - there are trees on it i figure go back a hundred to one hundred and seventy years in age - enough about trees you're right about it looking eastern because it is - about 8 miles inland of the southern shore of Lake Ontario in central Yew Nork -

[creativesoul]

wow this is way better than tv- seriously- lake ontario- sounds windy and bone cold- i dunno if i could take a walk in that- going shopping for a sub zero- even my mink coat dont cut it- although it works good for ceremonies- tending fire at night- which thank gawd no one asked me to do in awhile-just had a smoothie and a potatoe- the most misunderstood vegetable- well- as much as i like to see beautiful places- i am afraid i am a fair weather woman- and dread the cold- i have sunlight bulbs in my room- for those of us that might - have to resort to strange depression drugs- which i run from the mere suggestion- having let the medical profession dose me one other time- there is a pill for everything ya know-
so i just said forget it- one day- i said 'nope not again' then it was all the other stupid shit they had me on- some of it was kinda nice- but well- it was kind of ugly-
lets be real- a woman that got beat up by her husband on fentnyl- that was fucked up- i knew to be quiet and keep walking and swimming and soon i was all healed up and no more shit- so it goes-it goes-
here all the farmers are still here- some of them look like a throw back geneticly- i mean- sweet but kinda slow like-
i like the guy next door- his brother has the most amazing strawberries- he told me he could taste the differences between tomatoes- i said' most men couldnt do that' he said 'youre right'
so it goes- he has a woman- yeah - always- she says'i have never had sex with him'
i said 'really'
i cannot imagine being with someone i couldnt have sex with- i mean come on-
anyways farmers are no different than city folk= they just pierce thier face and like public transportation- cut their hair funny = use skateboards and - work at a sex toy factory - it is simple- i guess-
i want to be rommantic but everything runs from it like freezing cold wind- i am terrified of ever melting together again- like i do with the fire- it just hurts too much-
i guess most people say that before they go out and do it again- right?
i am on slow- i am going to see my son and his woman and her family tommorow - i have the gifts and everything in the car already packed and im not going until wednesday- ha! a little excitd-? soooo excited- god i love those boys- whatever happened it happened the right way- because they are beautiful-

[creativesoul]

[quote="creativesoul"]wow this is way better than tv- seriously- lake ontario- sounds windy and bone cold- i dunno if i could take a walk in that- going shopping for a sub zero- even my mink coat dont cut it- although it works good for ceremonies- tending fire at night- which thank gawd no one asked me to do in awhile-just had a smoothie and a potatoe- the most misunderstood vegetable- well- as much as i like to see beautiful places- i am afraid i am a fair weather woman- and dread the cold- i have sunlight bulbs in my room- for those of us that might - have to resort to strange depression drugs- which i run from the mere suggestion- having let the medical profession dose me one other time- there is a pill for everything ya know-
so i just said forget it- one day- i said 'nope not again' then it was all the other stupid shit they had me on- some of it was kinda nice- but well- it was kind of ugly-
lets be real- a woman that got beat up by her husband .. and was on fentanyl- that was fucked up- i knew to be quiet and keep walking and swimming and soon i was all healed up and no more shit- so it goes-it goes-
here all the farmers are still here- some of them look like a throw back geneticly- i mean- sweet but kinda slow like-
i like the guy next door- his brother has the most amazing strawberries- he told me he could taste the differences between tomatoes- i said' most men couldnt do that' he said 'youre right'
so it goes- he has a woman- yeah - always- she says'i have never had sex with him'
i said 'really'
i cannot imagine being with someone i couldnt have sex with- i mean come on-
anyways farmers are no different than city folk= they just pierce thier face and like public transportation- cut their hair funny = use skateboards and - work at a sex toy factory - it is simple- i guess-
i want to be rommantic but everything runs from it like freezing cold wind- i am terrified of ever melting together again- like i do with the fire- it just hurts too much-
i guess most people say that before they go out and do it again- right?
i am on slow- i am going to see my son and his woman and her family tommorow - i have the gifts and everything in the car already packed and im not going until wednesday- ha! a little excitd-? soooo excited- god i love those boys- whatever happened it happened the right way- because they are beautiful-[/quote]

[the mingo]

you off somewhere then i take it? well then, Good Journey !

[creativesoul]

eugene-home of my son s wife- and yes- it is a cool crowd- treehuggers and teetotlalers
i like them

[creativesoul]

My son got me a hotl near the house where the feat is- good thing I went with the light- because - my eyes are really hurting- tv- and hot water and everything! Peace-

[the mingo]

Dead Bird Meat Day !

[creativesoul]

Vegan meals here

[the mingo]

everybody gone home now ... quiet doubly so after all the activity ... snowing fairly hard out there - what they call "lake effect" snow - ain't gonna explain it - too full of food - google if ya wanna know - kids around here all day - one little girl stashed m&m's all on the floor on my side of the bed - don't know why - when i saw it it was like looking at a small herd of buffalo from the air if buffalo were round and & small & came in colors -
quiet now - coffee & vaping some Huntsman juice from Heather's Heavenly Vapes - she uses tobacco extract in her juices instead of just tobacco "flavor" - makes all the difference in the world to a guy like me - this juice has real balls - tobacco "flavored" juice is ... blah times two -

[creativesoul]

I was with the people that love my son- like I do- sometimes- it seems like I just rode the wrong horse- so much sweetness- yet I prefer my quiet- where I can hear the voices of the people that love me-- which as luck would have it- most of them are dead- I could cry- or laugh or just take my smoke and go talk to the stars-but it is 32 degrees- I was talking with Jerry in the backyard- he was raking leaves- for a moment it was like the good ole days with mr g- I was happy- but I wanted to smoke a cig so badly right there in the sun listening to Jerry talk-- I had to come back to the hotel and get one out of my truck- and smoke it walking to this really old house on the hill- I dunno why I do what I do- later Jerry had a headache- and I rubbed a few spots- and showed him a few spots- I dunno- I wonder - then I come home and Matt irons is talking about nets and opu fishing - and says that guy has the wrong number-- here I left the flower I got- and forgot the pies- in the refrigerator here at the hotel- I am stupid with needing my son to love me- and he bought me a hat- and have me gloves- yet I feel like no matter what he knows I love him- but there is much that I cannot repair- it isn't nice when the father of your kids "don't dare say it- "but every once in awhile- it hurts.. I guess that some things cannot be understood by sons or husbands- that I didn't stay in one spot or have the same phone number for 30 years is a problem- I just look at him and say" your mother is Sagittarius " like that should explain everything-.. Your mother cannot drink- your mother is a healer- and this was not really what I thought I would say- at all- in fact I feel as if I am floating watching being observing- and love heals me in this world of strange circumstances-and plain stubborn will. Thinking that maybe all those dreams were from another part of me- and now with his beautiful woman they will make babies with their love- and perhaps they will see that it was not so easy..

[the mingo]

I never talked to the stars due to some small anxiety they might talk back -