Bandit Notions

[the mingo]

Birthday? Birthday? Happy Birthday !!

[the mingo]

we are getting wealthy in age

[creativesoul]

It's snowing at the beach- wow

[creativesoul]

Love

[the mingo]

wow really enjoyed this shot - thx!

[creativesoul]

this is the month i get a bike- they must be on sale- it s christmas- i will have paid my room mate back and paid off my x mas list and then im done- see-my room mate wants a book by shirley mcclane- ok- i want the book by smith that says 'welcome to paradise, now go home'==not too smart that he wrote it down- but it was bound to happen by a mainlander sooner or later-island mentality- it has taken three years to back someone off the bridge-in wahniha- and to scream 'slow down' at people- then i came back to the mainland-
was thinking about the river- and the spirits of that place- it was healing for me----that rushing sound all day and all night-
it was almost too much- and my elder would tell me on the phone- can you hear it sing- each season-
that was the house where the tv didnt work and i i could only watch half the movie- and the tv would go on half screen- i really didnt want to watch tv anyways- but it was good for me- wriitng my own endings- and finally not having an ending was good enough- because - the end of 'eat love pray'- i never saw- and im good with it- i saw road warriors last night- i gambled- i lost about 50$? i was never a gambler- too paranoid of being hungry i guess- besides- im too sensative- i feel blasted by all that electricity-my roomaate got sucked right in- the tenacles of the gambling fiend had her in a chair and she couldnt get up until she lost a hundred- and then got 45-
i worked in the cal-neva shrimp bar in lake tahoe when i was 17- my cousin richard was head of shipping a receiving- he gave me bags of beluga caviar and lobsters- my cajun husband was a drummer at bars and lounges singing earth wind and fire 'cant hide love' he was hot - i mean sizzling- and i melted into any barstool i could find gazing and blinded by love watching him- that was my job back then-
my grandfather - richard dix was - well brimmer- hoosick river - ny? history book stuff-iriquois- but he was hunaka by halauapai-and an actor by trade- the one that i like the best is the 'redskin' which has a history of disapearing and re-appearing - and he was a ghost dancer - poppy he is like the first guy to die in new orleans in the movie 'live and let die'- a real james bond type- mama- she has some silver screen in her too- i moved to kauai to get away from hollywood- come to find out the shit is genetic- my kid is a director artist-i knew who they were before they were born- they think im a nut- but each had their own yin and yang-
dunno what to say- there is snow- and i am good for what i gotta do- wish i had a large bathtub and a hotel room in the city and room service= my fantasies are pretty good- i want to get waxed and massaged and my nails all pretty and then go dancing- thats that- i can do this- under all my gear i will be a lady in the snow- ha ha ha ha
fact is- i am a lady now- i had the most amazing birthday ever- my friend with her recently rebuilt foot- we took her to the beach- we have another girlfriend that would like to keep her in the house and dote on her-so she got to go do something- and the beach house was awesome- it was a lil apartment my very own and the kitchen was upstairs where they were was perfect- we took our own space-walked the beaches in seventeen degrees- jenny chauffered me around while buying a fancy jacket and wow- below sixty degrees this jacket- it s insane! i walked in that cold and the only thing was cold-was my face-have known these girls a long time- i cooked salmon and did a bunch of nice things- but i am not a good nurse- i have decided i will leave that up to my other friend that didnt go-at any rate if you can go outsdie and smoke in this- then well- you are nucking futz
some day
other than ceremony i will get to dance in other ways

[the mingo]

my fantasies are pretty good-

ok that was a smile - got a river here that splits the town in two - bridges, dams all up and down it - you are left totally to your imagination for how it looked when the Haudenosaunee set up their fishing camps up and down the banks - i have read the diaries of the first white folks here - mostly trappers who came here for the trade in beaver skins & deer hides - those writings speak only of rapids & whitewater, especially at the mouth of the river where it empties into Lake Ontario & farther upriver too - but you can't see any of that today - 'cept upriver about 10 mile from here - below the dam there flat rock is exposed in the riverbed and the water still gets to dancing angry & foamed over it - I don't like kayaking the Oswego River - and it's not the fact that all the dams have made it very deep and the water brown & green so that you can't see very far into it - it's the notion of brooding I get when i'm on it - the water is flat and looks slow but i know large forces have been contained - i never horse around in the kayak when on the river - my eyes are always open & my body tensed - just can't relax - it's just a sense of being watched i think to put it to words - i don't go on it too often and when on it i never turn my back to it -

there are Indian casinos here - went to one my sister goes to often - belongs to the Oneida tribe - or i should say to certain factions in the tribe - the internal politics within the tribes that go this route are just as, if not more than, contentious as the internal politics of the state of Israel - it wasn't for me - all i could smell was money & trouble & misery sure as hell

room service ya say? Ha - Mz. Luxury

[creativesoul]

i say i want that- or my mind says- yeah that would be great- but i think it is just something i think i want- but for sure- i want a bathtub for a tall girl- - and yeah- i cook and clean all the time- as you know- for large groups of people that= really - i dont socialize much- but i know that room service is out of all my friends- no one else wants room service or cares about it- so - we do it thier way- but - i am going to burger king out someday- and HAVE IT THE WAY I WANT IT- hope you are laughing-i have had plenty of room service- my favorite hotel is 'shutters on the beach' in venice california- you can rent a bike and roll on down the prominade- and there is a ferris wheel and a merry go round on the pier- and that ocean- you can hear it at night- can rollar blade wherever you want- and swing on the rings- sand all over- and food tastes really good - when you are at the seaside-
fish- i love it- trout and slamon- halibut cheeks -- mmmm baby
so i guess food is medicne and that is what we gotta do- is eat- i know that lots of people think 'fasting' is a thing to do- i say- been there done that- lighten up is what i think we all need to do-so = i will go watch bad tv- and think some more about working at the food bank all winter

[the mingo]

yeah i laughed - don't fast either - for God or man - if God had created man for fasting he wouldn't have given him tastebuds, teeth, stomach, or ass hole - stuff that don't add up to any sense i stay clear of by the widest margin - 'Nite, Jana

[creativesoul]

it was very early when i got here- on computer- funny how this littl creeping thoughts approach- like gaurds around the castle- 'big idea coming this way'
so i wake up- make some coffee- pet the dog a little- im slightly dispionted- that the only words that came =were about some - broken shards of release-
grease my palm=
tonight-it is monday- will not borrow money again- and i will not eat crappy food in a bad resturant because it is the only one in town because my frenz do
it is a waste of $
so i am paying back for that today- no more-
i am not cool enough to eat at coffee shops- and i dont like the word 'breakfast' seems like the people that say it like to sit around more than i cAN TAKE

[the mingo]

i'm eating toast with peanut butter - bought some new kind of bread - texas bread or french toast bread or something like that - big thick slices ya know - but it squishes down by the time you get butter on it & peanut butter & whatnot - lot of air in there - and it almost tough
- so much for what promised more of a feast to the eyes than what turned out the truth in the mouth - i don 't go out to eat much - when i do i eat just 'bout anywhere and i'm never cool enough but i don 't give two shits & lucky for me i don't go to restaurants for cool - i go for to eat the food - man i reall like that beach shot you sent couple posts ago - the one with the coating of snow on the sand & the dog tracks in that snow going up the side of the pic - if you're cool enough to make a shot like that then you're cool enough for most all -
which reminds me - gotta take my own hound for a walk - he's big & useless & a pain in the ass for most things 'cept to love him -

looks like i've come to the end of this post -

[creativesoul]

WILL HAVE TO POST SOME MORE

[creativesoul]

I have photos on another camera that I have not figgered out how to get them s

[the mingo]

i just love all the space with the lights & the greys and dark bunches - thank you thank you - i like painting like this - i think there are subtleties in these forms and colors that are just fascinating all the fuck to me - if you get those other photos off your other camera i would really enjoy seeing them - really really! Thx!

[creativesoul]

still waiting for my canvas - mr fed ex man? ups man? no such luck- but let me tell ya- my room where the canvas will live and sleep and breathe with me- it s a marriage-i await the beaded bracelets from nepal of which i cannot keep nor give away - anyone that loves me supplies more-- i once had gold and rings and bracelets of which i was completely arrogant -and it sort of - was released- like toothpaste-- slowly- i got it -that my sanity was more important than stuff- which was to my down fall- i was pretty much packed up and ready to go in my mind long before leaving- it was as if being present was enough- really- i was sucking air-taking up space- and some days- i think well-- at least i am out here doing ceremony= not bothering anyone- stayng outta trouble-- i think of that tall woman in hanalei- that i just had to get her to the meeting- and she had been talking all day- like a hamster - and a wheel- i finally said-'do you sing?'
why yes-
was i surprised when she sang to the sea- 'trouble'- nice voice- she told me her husband and her used to sing that before kissing- and hot sex- it wouldnt work for me- but she got to the meeting- and i saw her sing- under the palm trees at hanalei- there was a little bit of a drama queen in her- and she is clearly singing to the wrong love God-
he was like a nasty little bug that sucked the life out of women- and it would seem-
it has become his end-but i better not tell that story here- because very recently i was rather shocked by it- i know you thought i was atough girl and i could take anything right? wrong- i cannot believe that story-
so i hope that this is what you wanted- what you hoped for- to be taken care of- so often i tell people to be careful what they ask for-
the snow is coming down- i have vegetables and tofu and meat and it can snow for a week now- i have food- i got this lil roast- and i have a crock pot stew on my mind with a whole lot of carrots- i dunno whats got into me-
was supposed to go tot he city- but i cant- its snowing- i am not in control of anything- and i like that- my studio is waiting for the painting canvas- the room is clean- got a new carpet- for 39 dollars and it will be warm in there now-=
been freezing- 18 dehrees outsdie-without that jacket- i think i might have persihed- lol