friend

[creativesoul]

some people you cannot sleep
while they are driving
because the things rolling on
outside the window
need to be paid attention to

that red tailed hawk was screaming this morning
while my face hurt in the sun
a dentist fixed me
got rid of all that nasty energy

that he put there
because i was not going to be his mommy
because i am more of a whore then you think
and you have no money
not a good match
would not be poor for you
my skin expands and contracts
lets liquids secret out of places
like my ears
and the sound of your voice would be too painful
beleieving in you
like a total fool
you were never there-


words that meant nothing
until i found a real friend
that when i needed some help
she cared
i watched her go thru so much of her own stuff=and blossom after
the metal in her neck got removed
she watched while i built myself up from th past
got healed up
she is my friend see
there is a difference
some people like it when you are not doing well
i have had to tell people like that to go to hell-
really
this guy sat down at my table while i was eating
started telling me his life s tales-
i looked at him and said' do i look like i give a fuck about your band or your car or anything else?
think again
he said' i cant talk to you'
i said 'good'
while paying up
i said' you need to keep your customers on a leash. a man that comes to my tabel telling me about his $ problems could get clubbed to death'
bartender said'one good club would do it'
yep- if nothing changes nothing changes
think ill go eat mexican food with my new teeth-

[whoaisme]

LOL (sincerely, of course) at "one good club would do it"

[saw]

you cover a lot of ground ( my friend)...no pun intended...

handled as always with raw detail.....

and honesty

[creativesoul]

i dunno- i been out here among the hillbillis and farmers for a couple years now- eating quite a few strawberries- the crawford empire is next door- kind of had it with the fields of gold- and chasiity as some kind of puratanical theme song= being spiritual doesnt end bodily fluids = or love does in fact= change us- make us whole and new- even if it is just about me being you- and loving me= and me loving you and being me and being loved by you- or not-
but i listen to the big maka maka s tell me sad tales and the silly part is that i think- who can we get to play this guy?
like i have some screenplays in here-
ya know
like the guy i know that is 60 and gay and has a punk rock haircut-and really hardly ever take s a bath- someone told him finally- i wouldnt go camping with him- i made jokes like 'take him, the flies will follow him'
i know i am terrible-
i am about to go to australlia- my plants are beautiful and i chase cows in the morning away from my corn- yeah uh huh- actully- listening to a big guy talk about cracking a whip on a woman s ass was enough for me yesterday- i am more of a whore then you think-' i mean i could seriously get into that '- cracking some of these fuckers on the ass-no viagra= ----

and how to re-kindle the flames of the love i like the best?
dunno -
gave it all a rest
sometimes it is a real pest
all that desire 'transpires
manifests
like california on a hot summer s night
skin all like silk in the moonlight
the palm trees make music
like the eagles
you can never leave
start it now end it there=move forward
let go of fear
ok
now enough about hay

moving to the city
i want to see that man that glistens
the soul seems to come
with this eyes
he seems like gordon ----like a man i could really love
i am going to find out=