Angry and afraid.....

[hester_prynne]

I'm so angry. Indeed, angry at what is happening to us. Feds raiding harmless radio stations, government with access to taking our homes whenever they want, medical marijuana busts, and the headline in my hometown paper today confirms what everyone in this town has been in denial of.....feds can overrule state and community rejections of natural gasline plants that want to set up shop. They are in the planning stages of constructing a natural gas pipeline right here, in four places!, on my beloved river.
We are screwed. Things are going to happen fast too, now that there is some opposition. Bush and his cronies are not going to let up, no they will power their greedy and criminal plans into fast action now....

Today, I feel like i've had my heart smashed in.
I can't be creative. I can't sing. I can't get a job, I don't have enough money anymore to live on. I am hungry. Yep. No food here.
I feel so fucking alone with nothing, nothing to hang onto.
Lies, liars and a nation of overfed complacents who won't get it until it's too fucking late. Worry about every other country but this one, where starvation and poverty are on the rise like never before, I see it everywhere, hear about it everyday. But never, is it really addressed, because no, "we don't have poverty in our country to worry about.....no no not in America, only in other, less fortunate countries...."
This country is too proud for it's own fucking good, looks the other fucking way far too much, denies it's own sinking reality.

I DON'T WANT TO HEAR ABOUT OTHER COUNTRIES ANYMORE! NOT UNTIL THIS MESS AT HOME IS FUCKING CLEANED UP! I WANT THE BUSH ADMIN IMPEACHED AND SENT TO TRIAL. I WANT OUR TROOPS HOME FROM IRAQ NOW, AND I WANT THEM TO BE MAD AT BUSH FOR USING THEM IN HIS SELF-FUCKING-SERVING PHONY CHRISTIAN CON JOB. I WANT PEACE AND COMMUNITY IN OUR OWN COUNTRY GOD DAMMIT!

Sigh.
Thanks for letting me get that off my chest......

H

[Doreen Peri]

It's fucked, alright!

It's bigtime fucked.

And I'm sitting here feeling guilty because I'm upset that I lost 3 or 4 gigs of music files.... gone!

I should be ashamed of myself.

The world is screwed! and i'm upset about my music files.

Typical damn american mentality? Probably.

Shoot me.

Hest... you are so sensitive and wonderful!!! You see what's going on and your fears are justified..... I wish I believed in some religion or something... because I'd pray for this planet right now if I did!

I don't know what to do....

Now they can take people's property? Shut down radio stations??? This is NUTS!

All I can say is I believe in the human race and I believe that if things go too far, there will be enough rebellion and maybe even a revolution ...

I gotta believe in something so I choose to believe in people like you.... and others who will make their voice known and help put this world back on the right track...

fuck...

i lost all my music.... my music was my sanity...

lol

as I said, shoot me... what a selfish thing to be worried and upset about lost music...

my mind and heart was in there...

i feel stripped.

[Zlatko Waterman]

Ladies:


I, who am a misanthopist ( in the general, not in the individual case . . .) and deeply pessimistic about politics, heard some good news today.

Warren Olney, a local newscaster who made good internationally and nationally ( and a damned good interviewer) and is syndicated over NPR, had a hopeful program ( "To the Point" on PRI) today.

It seems that the Democrats are actually getting off their asses a bit ( now, this is not an endorsement of the Democratic Party-- not by me . . .) and are trying to meld with some of the grassroots Bushco resistance, which begins to seep just slightly, even from the US Congress.

They, like a few others, smell blood in the water and a slight chance to make 2006 for Dems a bit like 1994 was for Republicans ( or should I say for Crypto-Fascists, the way the thing turned out . . .).

In short, it begins to look like, with the resistance to Bushco's looting of Social Security, and the ability of even the meanest blockhead to begin ( I guess tv is talking about this . . .as you know I haven't turned the damned thing on for twenty years-- so I'm always--by choice-- plug ignorant of what the tubecasters are saying . . .) to begin to see, I say-- that the Iraq war is unnecessary, murderous and incredibly costly, while people languish with no health insurance, etc..

But, of course-- not to celebrate! But only continue to resist.

Even significant parts of Patriot Act II have been carved off.

But take some tiny scintilla of hope from the fact that the numb majority is actually beginning to be twitted by SOMETHING.

Public opinion is still the most powerful force in this country-- that scares the Alexander Hamilton gene in me-- but it simply means that folks can take back the country if they'd only stop voting against their own self interest.

100 million qualified voters didn't vote in the last election.

That's enough to oppose any president or regime.

The sun is shining, and it's June-- and you are a singer with world class technique ( Hester) and the soul of a Delta Blues crop sharer with the pitch of Kiri Ta Kanawa.

I know, Hes, I listened on someone else's computer.

Wish I owned a club. I'd hire ya in a second.


Your friend, in consolation-- and you too, Doreen,


--Z

(N)

[judih]

anger thrown to the wind
ears listen, join in
anger can move mountains

but can it fill a belly?

might be time to organize. get a room-mate. get a partner to get gigs at kids' birthday parties.

First food, then shelter, then let's change the world.

[hester_prynne]

I relish your posts, Doreen and Zlatko and Judih. Thank you for listening to me wail.
I feel so strongly that we are headed to and even pret near disaster. I don't want people to lose their jobs/livelihoods like I have. I don't want people to lose their houses, their lifestyles, their securities to this phoney assed government like I did. ....I don't want people to go thru it, but they are, more and more, insidiously it's growing, while we are diverted, by the perverted.
It just makes me so sad, and I wonder, I wonder hard as to why, why, it's happening when we outnumber this government, when we should be en masse in outrage at pinocchio bush. Instead, as my good friend Sue puts it, we are like the little boys who were promised paradise but turned into jackasses when they got there.
And jackasses, we remain.....seemingly, willingly, and me, well
I PROTEST! I don't want to be jackasses anymore god dammit.
Thank you for hearing me.
Hest

[whimsicaldeb]

Hi Hester,

...and the headline in my hometown paper today confirms what everyone in this town has been in denial of.....feds can overrule state and community rejections of natural gasline plants that want to set up shop. They are in the planning stages of constructing a natural gas pipeline right here, in four places!, on my beloved river.

Oh my gosh ... I just happened to be reading about this last night; in the latest National Geographic (July 2005);
http://www7.nationalgeographic.com/ngm/ ... index.html

I was shocked, and outraged by this article; I can fully understand how angry and hurt you'd feel with these being approved for your own town. An Astoria is a lovely town (was there last year/August)

Judih's right; your immediate needs are most important ... food; rest. Take care of those things first.

I feel so strongly that we are headed to and even pret near disaster. I don't want people to lose their jobs/livelihoods like I have. I don't want people to lose their houses, their lifestyles, their securities to this phoney assed government like I did. ....I don't want people to go thru it, but they are, more and more, insidiously it's growing, while we are diverted, by the perverted.

I'm sorry, I don't know you very well ... I don't know your situation. Do you mind my asking what happened?

I don't know if this will help lift your spirits, and it won't help you get something to eat; but a lot of people like myself who didn't know that this stuff's going (was going on) do so - now.

Thanks to publications like National Geo and others; more & more people are finding out. And that's important, because it stops the diverting (perverting). Then ... the more who know - of those many more will join in speaking out; where together our combined voices can make a difference, where before ... it didn't; because it couldn't; because the diversion(s) were so complete/effective.

I don't know why this administration - in conjunction with the BLM (Bureau of Land Management ) is selling out our national heritiage and resouces out from under our very feet ... but there is an answer; and a solution to match this problem; and they will come out and be seen and can be implemented -- after all that's really going on comes out.

In the mean time, take care ... and, may all your needs be well meet.

[stilltrucking]

This ought to cheer you up.
"A dark
Illimitable ocean, without bound,
Without dimension, where length, breadth, and height,
And time, and place, are lost: where eldest Night
And Chaos, ancestors of Nature, hold
Eternal anarchy, amidst the noise
Of endless wars, and by confusion stand."
http://emotional-literacy-education.com ... dfre10.htm
You got me thinking about The Decline and Fall Of Everything. I been reading Madame Blavatsky's Baboon, Gudierf and OUspensky and the boys wandering aroung Russia in 1917, god only knows what chaos is in store for us.
Sorry to hear you having rough time now, I thought I had it rough, but I know you will be okay,
I got one more avocado and a pot of vegetable soup cooking on the stove. Two packs of Dorals, a library card and plenty of books. About seventy bucks in the bank to last eight days. Things looking pretty good for me today. Yep these are the good old days. No doubt that george bush will be the worst president of the united states if we survive another three years. But these are still the good old days. Every time I see a pregnant woman I think there goes another optimist. Sounds like you need a day at the beach. When ever it all realy gets me angry I think ocean, as close to the Holy as I can get these days. Not very
Anthropomorphic these days. I hope you find a new gig soon, I think NPR got their money back.

[Trevor]

I'm not going to comment on this political thread, too late at night to get angry and go on a rant...however, Stilltrucking : "Every time I see a pregnant woman I think there goes another optimist. " ---- Great line man!

[Zlatko Waterman]

Stilltrucking, you are an original.

It's good to read what you write.


Zlatko

[hester_prynne]

Hey Still, checked out your link, have to thank you for it....bookmarked it, been reading it here and there....for hours.....seems for some reason to be comforting.......strangely enough, the rise and fall of the Roman Empire comforting...but it is.

I think i'm in shock. Been stuck in shock. It's time to unstick myself. Get into the "carry on" mode. yep.
Amazing how disappointment can freeze me up.

Good wake up call Still.
Thanks again.

H