Will I ever be satisfied?

[YABYUM]

thats funny. I guess that's the greatness of life. No patterns. Nothing is really predictable. Except maybe the NY Jets and Republicans.

[Arcadia]

you´re right.

[jimboloco]

mY goodness, I dig that poem from Whitman.....I have a old book of Whitman's poems that I bought for a quarter, 25 cents, yes, at a book sale at the Long Beach library, it has an inscription on the inside front "Woody Guthrie, Longy Beachy, 1954" and another one inside, "My favorite word-kook." Swear to Gawddd. I got it about 30 years ago, just when YabYummer was emerging into this world, WELCOME, yes.....I kept it somehow, thru all my travails, vagabonding. One thing, tho, I was sad a lot. If you can vagabond and be happy it is a plus. I never really grew until I found a home base that I could call my own, Tampa Bay. What can I say?

Nobody lives in Kerouak's house, It is owned by the Sampas family, the last trial was this spring, Gerald Nicosia's biographer was there, they keep it intact, with his car.


jack's house from the side. I walked in thru the side fence.
Only ghosts live there now. They had a phone number listed for the first several years, that's how I learned the address, the phione was always busy. Know the man who lives across the street, an old Quaker.

I am deep in debt, man, but not doing bankruptcy. Ten months and my car will be paid off. Five years to be out of debt. Then we'll sell the house and be free.

No need to be in debt or tied down. I am happy, tho. Have a great job, a hard job, am glad that I do.

Oh yeah, the street light went out for several months and it was great! I loved going outside at night. Now it it back and it overwhelms everything. I'd like to shoot it out for sure.

[knip]

i guess i live on the grid...not sure my mind is there, though, although many would disagree

anyone doing what they want to do is bound for a better shot at happiness...maybe not all the time, but enough of the time to make it their own

[stilltrucking]

"adult" figure that I have goals and dreams and all that shit but they don't include mortgages, car payments, children, marraige, social security and all that other shit that happens when you exist on the grid.

Ah man do we need to get into that.
This is so much more interesting to me. I feel like I want to break out into a rendition of Cat Stevens or what ever he calls himself now …I am old but I am happy

They tell me that I am immature and will one day regret the inaction of my youth.

Maybe one day I will wake up an old man with hands that cant hold a nail anymore, maybe I will contract cancer and wither away on a rusty couch in some local YMCA, maybe I will, maybe I won't. But for every bad possibility, there is also a good one.

Have you ever checked out the bike scene in the Canyon Lands around Moab. Seems like a easy place to get a job, especially if you love mountain bikes. Never seen so many in one spot

Great post, a lot of food for thought for this twenty two year old 64 year old man.

Gotogo be back with more ramble for sure, this is great.

Yeah HST is certainly one of my heroes too, he had such a wonderful family, they understood and did not mind cleaning up after him at all. Oh well, no mistake is serious unless it is permanent.

sounds like you got a grip on it punk, happiness in work and love is about the best we can do I think. I wasted a lot of time looking for the ultimate fuk, the ultimate high, the ultimate knowledge. Go for it.

"don't let the devil steal your joy"jitterbug

you seem so nonchallant about the ocean. strange, and chicks too.
The strangest thing or maybe the stupidest thing or youthful is the remark about all the places you been and things you have done and the stories you could tell but that no one would believe. That is an odd remark, why should I care if anyone believes me. Reminds me of a pysche profile test thingy I had to take to get a job with a trucking company. True or False: People can often feel my power.

[YABYUM]

a new destination has been achieved. I remember Mr. Furnish sending me some photos a while back. One photo inpeticular has stuck in my mind like the first time I saw a boob. It was a great picture of perfect right breaking waves with no riders in sight. I have decided to head out west in search of that very same wave somewhere in Oregon. I've secured a room and now am gathering all funds needed for the cross country treck.

You got me thinking about what I said. All the things I could write about but no one would believe. That does seem kind of fucking stupid. Thats why I do these things isnt it? Most times when I look around, even when shit is at its worst (i.e. police presence) I smile inside because I know I am right in the middle of yet another twisted story with hundreds of sub plots and footnotes. I agree with you, man. Why do I care if anyone believes me. Its all for me anyway. Maybe thats why I have never used a camera. Even when I did buy disposable cameras, I lost them. Just notebooks.

As for HST, man that fucking guy changed me. Him and Kerouac without ever once speaking a direct word to me have helped mold me since I first read 'on the road' and 'hells angels'. I remember the first time I got turned onto the beats. Tara Motto was her name. She was the girlfreind of this guy Johnny Fever. I rented a room (my first actually, I was 17) in the same house as them and would often get high and read my teen angst poems to Tara. One day she handed me a book all about the beat generation. That was it. One book. One moment. Amazing when I sit and reflect on that now. I think it was 6 months later I was on my way to Arizona for no reason except to go. hmmmmmmm The memories are just flooding in right now.........I think I'll go have a smoke.....

anyway, thanks for all the responses. I Thank the creative sources that created both Litkicks and StudioEight. I have met some great people in person and still others through words that I could have in no other way communicated with. What an amazing time to be a poet nomad drunken surfer.

[stilltrucking]

My stupid posts are legion I used to keep a special file on all my stupid remarks, the rocks you speak of I was lucky enough to be employed on a trawler out of Ilwaco WA by way of Rockport TX strange how they showed up in green on that radar screen when we running at night. The place reminded me of being in Camelot in June.
Litkicks Haiku Board a national treasure

[gypsyjoker]

You sound pretty satisfied now.

The last useless male

This thread is very interesting to listen too.
So stilltrucking
tell me big buddy do you include your remark about Ron's remark being stupid, do you include that one as another stupid remark?
If I was you I would.

Do me one favor don't drive drunk. And save some of your liver for later. That low down southern whiskey been holy water for me. Enjoy

done preaching at you
carry on my wayward sun.

and still trucking I regret to inform you that you are just a figment of my imagination

I am starting to worry about this
Why
Imaginary CB coversation with the other people

That does seem kind of fucking stupid.

I think stilltrucking would probably have changed his mind by now. not a stupid remark. I tell you what I think, when people don't believe you, that gives you an edge. You can see thier blind spot.
I was around thirty six the year you were born, did not know it but my love life had only three more years to run.

Close to the third coast but have not seen the ocean in years. Pitiful, Nietzsche was right, decadence is when batchellors live like married men. I need to run a way from home after labor day. Just go. Not family excursion no family circus. Yeah right, who am I kidding.

[hester_prynne]

Hey Yab, here's a pic of the house I rent.....



Here's Mnaz and Furnish in the kitchen.....



I'll see if I can get some more for you to see.....

H

[hester_prynne]

and a few more....so you can see the inside of the house a bit,

Poet/artiste/friend Sue, and furnish at the hoodoo bash



Pip comin down the stairs and into living room



Me and mnaz and part of the view of the beloved columbia you can see from the place

[knip]

what?

ok hes, now i'm pissed at ya!

[YABYUM]

I am salivating. Is that the pacifying ocean as seen from your back door? I'll tell you what, I sure am glad I decided to post that little rant of mine. And to think I was depressed a few days ago. Nothing pumps joy and excitement into the blood quite like the notion of the entire United States country side whizzing past through a train window during the course of three and a half days. I'm thinking that I will get off in Montana and spend a day or so breathing in. Ever since I saw the movie 'A River runs through it' I've always wanted to see Montana. I did alot of research on Oregon today. My freind Nick is currently trekking through Alaska, so he and I are looking forward to meeting up and sharing eye contact and beers after a long year away from one another. He's a gypsy, same as me. I've got a few interviews tomorrow for a waiters position, and some dude has contracted me to build him a Tiki bar along side his pool, so it would seem all things are lining like soldiers.

[hester_prynne]

Oh and here's another one:

Knip at the computer at hester's house:


(still mad now, knippity do dah honey?)

[knip]

all better

[YABYUM]

thats what knip looks like. Kinda look a little like Jake LaMotta.
Is that a cigarette? Looks a little "funny".