You are going to die.

[abcrystcats]

Sorry I wish I would just stop being so truthful. Probably a good idea ...

[stilltrucking]

What is to be sorry for?

[Ann Bingham]

Don't want to be cremated--too damned hot..hell will see to that. don't want to be buried either; too dark and cold. Guess maybe a medical experiment or something hell maybe they will figure out how to bring us back. But that even seems scarry, in my case would probly be a vegetable. So I guess the best is in a moseleum above ground.

Don't want people crying either. Just have one big party, dancing and getting drunk. Yeah I'm selfish.

love lots

[stilltrucking]

dam ann am I still here, i got to get to work but

I like your moseleum idea. I want to be like Lenin on display in Red Square. They can dust me off and change my underwear once a year on my birthday. I really am posting to much.

[Ann Bingham]

damn late, too, don't you think. How long will you be gone?

About the death thing my boyfriend and I talk about reincarnation, if there is such a thing. He doesn't want to come back as a female of anything..too many harmone changes. He wants to be a dog or house cat. Ours are way too spoiled. Can't really narrow down anything I'd want to come back as, everything has to die sometime. So I'll just hold onto the notion of everlasting life with Jesus and the angles. Think I'd like to be in the chour, course the Lord would have to give me a different voice; something with echo?

And please don't send me back as a female either. Think you suffer, just imagine being the one suffering and having no control over the rages, tears, and uncertainties. I think I lived my share of hell.

Think I'll work on something to put next to my name at this site but then I'd have to figure out how to get it here.

bey......

Love lots
Deb.

[stilltrucking]

I'll just hold onto the notion of everlasting life with Jesus and the angles

It is a good notion, if I had it I would hold onto it too.

I got no planes on coming back as anything other than some random molecules. If I die and St Peter asks me for my social security number I will be very disapointed. The Jews have a prayer quoting from memory "Thank you lord for not creating me a woman'

Yeah I think women got a bad deal too. We men got to love women and all you got was us hairy apes.

Not sure if my family is typical we talking immigrants, old fashioned jews not this modern stuff. In my family dead was dead, no adult ever spoke to me of heaven or hell, For us it was all here and now. I plan on staying dead. I think people get a narrow view of the reincarnation thing. Or as nietzsche and others have called it Eternal Return. I think you got to take the cosmic view, think in terms of billions of years. Another thing about reincarnation is the idea that souls are reborn, I read somewhere there are more people alive at this moment then have ever exested before. Where are all these new souls coming from if they keep being reborn, I suppose a few are escaping from the endless cycle of birth death birth, A lot of Buddhists here, I can't keep up with all the words satori nirvanna ,, etc. I like the idea of suffering is desire, it makes a lot of sense, but I don't want a new religion,

that peter never would have got wet if he kept the faith is from my sibling who never called himself a christian as far as I can remember, he and his wife read the bible cover to cover every year. he believes in eternal life. we never argue about religion, he never tries to convert me, I have no call to change his mind.


Ann I got to back out of here for a couple hours. THis thing is out of the text box. I mean I have no idea or barely remember what I just wrote.

No I got no plans on coming back as anything, the universe is going to have to drag me back kicking and screaming. But when this universe ends, and the creator resets his watch and the whole dance begins again, the void, the spirit the word, energy matter, and a few random molecules stick together to form the first mother and then daddy comes along, and I am born agian with the same social security number I had last time, I would hope that the words of an old rock and roll song apply. I think it was based on the Hebrew Bible
EZEKIEL SAW THE WHEEL

Little wheel turn by the fire and rod
Big wheel turns by the grace of god
everytime that wheel goes round
bound to cover a little more ground
you can't go back and you cant stand still
it the thunder dont get you the lightning will

Quoted from memory.



http://arts.ucsc.edu/GDEAD/AGDL/wheel.html

[lilywhite]

cremation, and then lost at sea with the dolphins.