track pants

[Axanderdeath]

It has almost been expelled for now
the ever increasing unease
that age and the gravity in all meanings
of the world comes in focus
then drops out in some childhood safe nook

you can find these all over my mind
“it is going to be ok”
is one I like or
“it is all going to turn out”
as I rub my stomach and pat
myself on the shoulder
calming the frightened child within

sleep takes over in all it David Lynch
and scary un-educated hilly billy
toothless nightmare material
like bent film in my mind.

Dry bad throat morning
taste of ash try
butt rolling hard done by
slobbering deep voiced morning
hippopotamus.

Through lush vegetation
machete in hand
the native boy makes
clicking sounds apon
opening of a clearing
I feel very white at that moment.

The family dog's ass walks out from the den
with chicken quality to it
a nice bit of dark meat
slugs of coffee at the counter
the newspaper head lines
the shock
the shock
the pain
the death
and I want to be a daddy
really
I like the terminator movies—that is a great place for kids
hell of a lot more exciting than this hell...

max the guy next door
the type of guy with 3 kids
that live with his ex wife
and he walks around with track pants
and the knowledge of a hundred deadbeats
smoking cigarettes with
salt and pepper hair
and green dead lifeless eyes.
he is a daddy
he is the daddy of a hundred and two
Macdonald's employees and thirty-six
university graduates with painkiller
addictions.
We talk about life
and how the mall is
being built up some fast.
He is trying to get on one of the crews
has to get some papers
I can't remember what ones.
Smoke floats along the wisps of cool morning air
into eternity.

Geoff Parsons

[stilltrucking]

that age and the gravity in all meanings
of the world comes in focus
then drops out in some childhood safe nook

butt rolling hard done by
slobbering deep voiced morning
hippopotamus.

and the knowledge of a hundred deadbeats
smoking cigarettes with
salt and pepper hair


nice work hard to pick the stuff I liked best, a lot of it in there.

I get a creepy feeling when someone says they like what I write.

nothing personal Geoff , I just like it. Makes me feel young again.

[Axanderdeath]

that age and the gravity in all meanings
of the world comes in focus
then drops out in some childhood safe nook

butt rolling hard done by
slobbering deep voiced morning
hippopotamus.

and the knowledge of a hundred deadbeats
smoking cigarettes with
salt and pepper hair


nice work hard to pick the stuff I liked best, a lot of it in there.

I get a creepy feeling when someone says they like what I write.

nothing personal Geoff , I just like it. Makes me feel young again.

Good--being old is not that bad--it is good really

I am not so ignorant about people that are old--I just got an ulcer--I have the liver of a 35 year old--I have smoked for ten years--I am more like a 34 year old than a 24 year old--I like you still--I get crazy about girls though and testy... Got to work on it--got to see a professional I think go back home to Halifax--where everone speaks english and stay at my folks for a couple weeks==or more like a couple days, We can not sit in the same room with out an argument for more than half an hour...

any way you always read my stuff stilltrucking sometime though I get the feeling that you just cut and past stuff and then say that it is good out of habbit or something. Loke me herassing girls on the telephone..

[stilltrucking]

Loke me herassing girls on the telephone..

Listen Geoff

I see a friend of mine who is signed in right now, and i want to juse this user name for her.

I would rather post this to you as gypsyjoker. Cause he is the user name I invented just for you. Remember him the old blind truck driver with the thaumaturgical writing machine?

You asked me how I got blind. I said I had poked both my eyes out choking my chicken.

Any way __

still trucking asked me to tell you that he is cutting you a lot of slack on the typos. He knows that he is being critical when he has no right to be. "you can't be any better than the worst you recognize"--jitterbug

He/I cut you slack because we dig your stuff. Still trucking has Attention Defacation Disorder about publishing. He don't give a shit whether he gets published or not. He is just trying to break the wild horse in his heart. You the one who wants to get published. I won't have children geoff, but I have a sister's son. He is a couple of years younger than you and he is still drifting. I know he is a valuable man.

From now on I will cut and paste anything that looks like an error. I

keep on writing

[joel]

I overheard a conversation two
men shared about his self, about his self;
I envied them. It seemed so honest, just
the way I’d like to talk: one spoke his piece,
the other answered; thanks and questions passed
between them (father, son and holy spir-
it). Brokenness addressed between these men
reflected life on life on life again.
I envy love. I’m always hanged on fear
I lack it. Honestly, I’m self-harassed;
I’m loved immensely as my loves. For peace
I ought that recognize, but feel I must
more have agape, eros, philadelph-
ia. Non-zero-sum, love’s greed is true.

...the more profound art is in the dialogue in which you two engage....