wonder

[creativesoul]

listening and watching
cracking stupid jokes every once in a while
i wanted to kick this drug
and i just hug my knees
dennis hopper is on tv
smoking
and i m sitting in bed thinking about the things i used to be able to do for thrills
if i walk that way today
it would mean disaster
there is a girl screaming on televison
she sounds like my addiction
feed me she screams
i just want a little more
geez
my friends come on here and they tell me they like reading my stuff
i wonder if they realize that my good stuff and my bad stuff come from the same place
i wonder if they realize the pain that a person feels saving face
i guess i just got to let it all hang out
nothing more i can say
i tried all the ideas of the other folks
always brought me back home to where i live inside
the nieghborhoods that i have been to
they have shown me around
but it is nothing like where i am am in this small town

[mousey1]

I've got the cracking stupid jokes part down just right
my sense of humor crowds to the fore
elbowing out the real truth of the matter

and she smiles...