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I am going to return them to the orignal post

Post by stilltrucking » January 27th, 2007, 7:13 pm

they were deleted by me
I just put them here to gather them together cause I had saved them to a word document

I was asking what it was that offended her, she never told me, so now I know. But you know sometimes an appology just ain't enough. But that is all I can do.

I will return them to the original context

Done.
Yes it is nonesense
But that is the way I did it
crazy is me.



You are right I should have just reposted them to the original thread, I just took the easy way out. But I have returned them

I will do my best to move on Doreen
I can't write for shit
a novel is way beyond me.

But I will remove myself from here
Just keep a blog somehwere.
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Post by Doreen Peri » January 27th, 2007, 7:47 pm

they were deleted by me
I just put them here to gather them together cause I had saved them to a word document

I was asking what it was that offended her, she never told me, so now I know. But you know sometimes an appology just ain't enough. But that is all I can do.

I will return them to the original context

Done.
Sorry. You deleted them. If you wanted to put them back, you could have done it already before.

The discussion/debate ran it's course long ago.

It's been over a long time. Last night was the last straw for me. Enough is enough.

Let's get back to writing something more important.

I suggest, since you are so prolific, you work on a novel or a play instead of incessantly scribbling without a firm direction. Maybe you'd enjoy creating something solid like that.

As far as putting your previously posted, already deleted comments in one spot on an internet thread in order to access them so you can repost them, well that's just nonsense, jack.

You already put them in one place. In our Word document. You could have accessed them from your document in order to repost them.

But no, you wait until I lock the thread and start an entirely new thread for what? For nothing except to keep fanning the flame.

I hope you get started on that play or novel instead of attempting to continue this banter.

It really IS over. Done.

I spent a long time on this last night. I'm not doing it again tonight.

So, if you have threads you'd like to restore by reposting what you deleted, fine, but if you want to repost what you deleted from a locked thread, it's too late, and if you want to keep talking about it on a new thread, it's also too late.

Argument over.

Thank you.

Carry on with something else.

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Post by stilltrucking » January 27th, 2007, 8:02 pm

I wish
I wish she had just told me what I said
instead of going around and around
maybe it is a gender thing
I have found the offending remarks
Finally after days of posting about how I was stalking her, how I hate her, how I was baiting her

Then finally she tells me what it was that really hurt her
she says I flamed her

I take responsibility for my words
at least I think I have found them
and yes I did flame her
damn me they ought to take a rope and hang me :evil:

I thought maybe I had scared her
cause she sure scared me
brought back my worst childhood fears
but like I said flames been good to me.
I am grateful for the light shed on a back corner of my mind that was pitch black and smelled like dead rats with maggots.
the air smells cleaner now.
I am free of that one
what's next I wonder

...deleted posts reposted here, in correct order I hope
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Post by mnaz » January 28th, 2007, 7:43 am

For what it's worth Jack, I hope you don't leave entirely.... I'd miss ya for sure. Your random scholarly snippets and wanderings and recollections inject an energetic sort of "X-factor" into this place... never know when they'll hit me, or open up some "new gate" in my head. As for deb, she has her reasons and I have to respect that. If it were me, I'd just try and slide "under it all"... somehow "undercut" all of the head-butting... that would seem my ideal chosen "zen" path, though I have to admit, it's a hell of a lot more easily imagined than practiced sometimes...

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Post by Doreen Peri » January 28th, 2007, 11:47 am

You can blog right here on your "artlog" which IS a blog.

How many times have you said you were leaving? :) Can't count them. There are too many.

Ahhh.... the net!

Stick around..... you're welcome as I say every time.

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Post by stilltrucking » January 30th, 2007, 10:04 am

sorry Doreen I am not taking the bait. :wink:

I'll be around mark
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Post by Doreen Peri » January 30th, 2007, 7:38 pm

See what's happened?

You stopped posting and the site has come to a standstill.

You broke it.

Without you posting, nothing happens!

;)

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Post by stilltrucking » January 30th, 2007, 9:16 pm

You need a bigger winkie :)

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Post by Doreen Peri » January 30th, 2007, 10:01 pm

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Post by stilltrucking » February 1st, 2007, 10:31 am

:shock:

I know you hate me.

So there I was standing at that open trap door getting ready to descend into the rectangle of darkness so much like an open grave smelling of dead rats with maggots, live ones too. Trying to figure out what my crime was. And the only hint he gave me was that I had stabbed him in the back.

Insanity descends
a very personal thread indeed.

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Post by Doreen Peri » February 1st, 2007, 1:13 pm

What are you talking about?

Jack, you said,
I know you hate me.
Jeezzzzz... Jack!

I don't hate you! You're joking, right?

You said,
So there I was standing at that open trap door getting ready to descend into the rectangle of darkness so much like an open grave smelling of dead rats with maggots, live ones too. Trying to figure out what my crime was. And the only hint he gave me was that I had stabbed him in the back.
Your crime? You had no crime! Someone was accusing you so I thought I'd strongly suggest, as a caring friend, that you just steer clear to avoid any further accusations.

Does my suggestion imply that I hate you?

I don't think so.

Of course you're referring to "he" and I donno who you're referring to so now that you have me totally confused, carry on, have fun, and please keep on joking around but don't make it sound like you're not when you are, OK? :D

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Post by stilltrucking » February 1st, 2007, 3:51 pm

I would like to be comfortable in my skin too. But I don't think I will.
According to Navajo tradition, when a person is born the principle of life—breath or "wind"—is put in the body by the Holy People. At death, the "wind" emerges from the spirals of the fingertips and becomes a chindi. Infants who die very young and the elderly who have lived a long and full life do not produce chindi.
http://www.hyattcarter.com/Death_or_.htm

that quote don't make much sense to you
it means a lot to me
I try to put my life in order
I am too old to die young
but I will not live a full life

I don't know what deb meant either when she said I hated her. This is a time in my life when things are coming back to me, everything I have ever done to harm anyone, every lie, every cheat, every theft, every dirty deed. They say death pays all debts, I hope so, I don't want any regrets, I pray for a good death, a George Fox kind of death, a death with a clear conscience.

Down to my last string
I promise I won't start another

Maybe I am baiting you
probably so.
just ignore this thread and I will remain silent

For some reason all her accusations made me feel like that frightened child being locked in that funky basement for something that was never explained. Some unknown crime.

You know I was asking for it
I always get what I had coming

It must be a chick thing I suppose
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Post by stilltrucking » February 1st, 2007, 4:00 pm

would please let me stew on the above reply for a while
I wont delete it my word of honor as a truck driver
this is all some sort of automatic writing to me
a learning experiece as the words come tumbling out my fingertips
You know I don't hate anyone here

I should have used a got damn winky when I said you hate me.

I am looking for redemption
even if it is a given.

you have no idea how much I regret those deleted posts
I think that is why I was begging you to block my access here
I could see it coming
My attempt to disapear myself
if not for one GO by Kim
I would still be deleting posts
she knocked me to my senses again.
I heard the bitter chord of my anger and fear

I appreciate your patience
Everything here on studio eight has been helpful to me
WD's flame especially.

I guess I am done stewing
moving on
going to work on writting senryu
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Post by firsty » February 1st, 2007, 5:05 pm

stilltrucking, i'm always on your side. will ride down the road any time with you, firing flames out the exhaust just like james bond but i won't make you wear a bikini or anything, just keep me posted on the five oh's and we'll be alright. life is no whimsy, life is for keeps.
and knowing i'm so eager to fight cant make letting me in any easier.

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Post by stilltrucking » February 1st, 2007, 5:45 pm

You know I don't know a damn thing about poetry, so how can it heal me?
"Poetry gives us knowledge of its own kind, a unique, unrepeatable, intelligible form. Poetic knowledge is neither intuitive, nor provable, nor ordered, nor consistent, but self-contradictory, beyond demonstration, beyond proof."
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Sorry firsty, about the deletions on remnants of madness, but it could have been worse, I might have cut my ear off. If that makes any sense.

I awoke from a nightmare with Kafka’s blues

I become rational on the edge of insanity

Dream after dream of waking

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