sleep

[creativesoul]

i wake and i feel his skin, his breathing and i feel him like a radiant light inside me.He is such a good man,and how did I get to this magic loving place? I spent years trying to die, pissed when I woke up, and now in this peace I can see I would have killed the wrong person.
My thoughts uses to race like a hamster on a wheel, now they just casually draw me to the computer because someome out there might read this and understand what I am saying.
I am about to go to work at a childrens lock down facility and it is my dream job. helping kids. they are our future, and I in my radar will sense hopefully what the next right thing is.I am being trained in all four pods, and I am really excited.
My roomate is moving out and we are buying this house, moving out of the garage and into the house after one year. We have a woodstove and tiled the floors all nice but it is small, and I did not know my man then so I did not need as much space. He comes complete with twin boys which are also moving in, and a mother we may bring home to die. What would you do?
My paintings are waiting to go to an art show and I have to with drop from two classes because of my job. I hope not, there has to be a way to do it all. I always have before! I know that All of the places I have been before have brought me to here, five years of school, and all the experiences I had teaching at Oregon Youth Authority prepared me for this, but I am just so grateful. I danced this prayer and I need to continue to honor my prayer.

[stilltrucking]

What would you do?

No place like home
Alamo Rose had a good death
at home
it is what she wanted
in the peace and quiet of her own room
in her own bed
with the dawns first light in her window

My sister in law
Diamond Lil
took good care of her
in those last days

I would walk through hell on sunday for diamond lil

keep on dancing
thanks for writting.

[stilltrucking]

Takes a lot of resources
not so sure if it was her own bed
or an imported hospital bed
other medical equipment was there too
I think
I was there day after day almost 24/7 the last couple days.
but some of that time a blur
other momments eidetic
I can bring them back to consciousness anytime.
the window and the color of the sky, the old woman on the bed, and the mirror on the wall facing her.


Diamond Lil a nurse practioner
Homeboy a physician
money was no object

I hope you make the right decision
but I felt like I should not as a stranger be trying to give you that kind of advice. Every family dynamics unique except for the ones on day time tv

best wishes
jt