death

[creativesoul]

my only cousin died on a motorcycle on fri at 515 he crossed over.
I imagine that since he never met his father, since he died in a logging accident and his mother died homeless in a car.that many people will meet him there on the other side.
He was the only one in the family that drummed and sang native songs.
Once when I was very young he rode his bicycle to my house in the rain. and my mother sent him away. I was not even allowed to talk to him. I never could get a straight answer about that.
I saw him once just before I took care of my grandma who had alzhiemers. he opened the door and his beard was gray, and I was surprised at how he had aged. He as always was really quiet and slipped out the door before anything was said. Once I was really mad at him because I got drunk and passed out naked with a boyfriend and he called the cops.I went to juvinile hall for that for two weeks. my parents wanted to teach me a lesson. why do parents even think they can do that.????
the things i learned were a horse of a different color, the school of hard knocks.I want a pit bull puppy tht is ll white and two hundred dollars. i would name it richard, after my cousin who i loved but maybe i just thought i would see him again. the last time he called he said I owe you an amends, I am so sorry.I am going to take a ride tommorow and see a friend, give her tobacco and talk to her. I really feel like sometimes I do not understand.
the things that I do for people I love are perhaps not always the right thing but I have to try, and try again. life is short.

[mnaz]

It seems the only real understanding is that it is not all to be understood. That's about what I've got so far. Well that, and you cannot always do precisely the right thing...

Condolences.

[stilltrucking]

" life is short."
People used to tell me that all the time and I never believed them.
Now I look back over 67 years and wonder where did the time go.


I am sorry for your loss