terminated

[creativesoul]

the cell phone answering machine says "we need you to ork these three hours please, if you can?" Voice of my boss and the ever fluctuating schedule. I considered it my good fortune that I did not recieve that call until the next day. Sometimes I do not answer the phone because I do not have to- the next day she calls again and says she would like to talk to me with in the next couple of days, I said" I do not want to wonder about what this is about , why don t I just come now?"
So I went knowing that she was going to fire me.Truth is they have too many staff and not enough kids.I asked her to give me specific examples of why, nd she could not. So I said thank you very much snf turned in my keys and walked out the door. i cried a little.I spoke to a staff member that I knew liked me, that told me I worked miracles on certain kids, and she said that "Darcy does not care"She suggested I try at Rosemont, I just wanted a recommendation letter from her.
One kid would not shower for a week and his room was a mess,I got him to brush his teeth and shower willingly, even to care for himself. I found him some socks, he did not have any.
At the main office, where they get money from rich old ladies to support the organization I met a older woman that used to volunteer for the organization I was previously working at, and shook her hand
. she was very sweet.
but I do not think she as working where I was working.None of the kids I ever worked with hurt me physically, most of them were kind to me, but when I got switched out, the whole calm and serene feeling was some how destroyed and the kid I was just talking to was in what is called a "hold" being restrained. which by the way I do not believe in.I never had to do it. I said things like" lets just get through this thing" like neither of us are thrilled about these four walls with fucking muriels from hell painted on them of animals with strange toenails. why would you paint shit like that on intensive treatment walls?
Prisons do the same thing, like bright colors are going to make you happy after you have lost everything and "nacho" is fucking your wife, driving your car and taking all your shit for dope? hence nacho wife no more, nacho car no more.nacho life no more.
these kids will more than likely not ever be assimilated, and since they are not taught anything of value their dreams are to be rich, "ah how do you plan to do this?"
I am going to have a nice car and a job.
planning and reality does not dawn on them. They give them pionts, with little remarks like "rude to staff"
are you an idiot, what teenager is going to respect authority? I did not!
So I had to meet them where they were. they talked to me.
someone did not like it
i got fired. As I was leaving the house to get terminated the most beautiful flowers came and had been delivered to the house.orange and yellow and a rosy pink color in a vase with cum quats.......from someone that loves me and supports my goals. It was such a contradiction, like a reward for being who I am.
I was polite when I was terminated. I never have been before.
My lover said "remember your prayers, maybe this was not the right job for you"
when we went to Jake s at my birthday dinner with my other dec bithday friend Becca they showed me on the daily menu it said "happy birthday Jana and Becca" on the top. that was so sweet.
I cannot believe what a great birthday that was.I think I had alittle of everything, cakes, crab legs bites of steak, potatoes yummy and a bite of all kinds of pies and custards.I tell you that I know sometimes I have to close one door and wait in the halway until another door opens, and I am not going to stare at the one that closed.
today I know one thing for sure :shit happens"

[Arcadia]

it would sound a bit weird if I say to you today altogether sad-felizcumpleaños-sad...! thanks for sharing your flowing texts!!!

[stilltrucking]

I am always moved by your stories.

I think you will find the right job.