fuck it

[creativesoul]

i sleep with a lair
my comfort is of no value to him
that laugh he does that is so phoney baloney
i want to beat him
my eyes glaze over and my pupils dialate
like a cat
" i love you" he says
" i love you too"
lies
if you lie to me then you have no idea what love is
if i have to steal twenty dollars for coffee and meat then I am a liar cheat and abnormal
no one says anything real
lies, just bold faced lying
what would you say if I told you I knew you were lying, and that I watched you lie to me
so I would know when you were lying
the truth is what I crave
that is how our love was born
honesty and willingness
i am detaching.
There is no place where you can plug in and suck energy out of me
i know when you are searching
for a place to plug in
you underestimate me
this is number 5 marriage
my tricks had more respect for me than you do
although it has been 28 years since I had to sell little bits of my soul
to surrvive
i told someone I was 50
he said "you look thirty"
i said " are you trying to bloat my ego, do not, it is already misleading me"
he looked at me like he was not expecting that at all.
at all
perfect curves
warm energy
the fat hangs all around the chicken shit
stupid to eat where you shit
dirty filthy birds
lying to themselves about the shit they are standing in
eating
sometimes food is digusting
watching people stuff their faces with pizza bread
little ceaser
fuck off
oh tease me
lie to me
lick me
fuck me
then go away

always the same
someone told me once I needed to learn how to say" fuck right off"
i learned

[constantine]

this is like stream of consciousness with emotional direction; i like that technique. in the first line you have lair - do you mean liar, i think so, but lair works too. lot of charge in this - very nice.