remind me -

[creativesoul]

that girl looked like me
all crazy and full of seroquel-
that drug tells you
run for your life
'

'go far away from anyone that told you take this shit'
i drove her to a couple meetings
she thinks everyone is going to steal all her shit
so she brings everything she owns
in the car
to the meeting
while back
i could hear people s pain too
she was sure that all the things she thought were true
i had to just listen and watch
wondering what kind of crazy shit i said for two years
like being tortured and then told it was ok
husbands and friends dont like ya much on that stuff either
if things were not going well in the first place
well
take some extra seroquel
he will not bother you anymore
but he wont understand what you say either
which might be a good thing

i pick her up again tonight
the other day
i watched a couple fight
had to step in for a moment
that snap thing is so early recovery
everyone talking
no one hears anyone else

like a subway full of crackers
crunch
my solution to anything today is pray
be thankful
watch the rain
after so much heart
and the total transformation of my body
innovative tools
use kauai as a rehab
it beats the hell out of a treatment center=
they take you to meetings for 17-50 grande
be smart
swim, walk and find a reason to live
tell the anti-depressant thoughts to FUCK RIGHT OFF= they will go away soon enough
i promise
but it take a while---peace= growth, and hippie indians!
she has an iphone with a list of all her alarms and reminders
i know that one too
'remind me' she says
laughing in a hyena like way
how crazy she is
like pigs flying on the geico commerical
service does wonders for everyone
even me


Second CHANCE to love is not the way
she wondered
like a for sale sign
in an old car- that desire was never replaced
her love life

but that all went out the window with a few moments out at sea

she just crept away
was there any other option? room after room of people that seem like medical experiments




no i am not that kind of doctor-- ha ha

[saw]

Big Pharma has a stranglehold on the health of the US.....WE have a drug that will fix that !......often the side effects are worse than the ailment being treated....

you got it right jana, look to nature...for the cures, and I don't mean only homeopathic remedies, but like you inferred, walks in the rain....watch a hawk glide for an extended period.....slow down.....breathe deeply......flush the prescriptions

[creativesoul]

since sept 22nd of 09 i told the bad boyz fuck right off- yep-one day i turned that bottle right over, and slept for four days =staring at the kitchen - wishing someone=anyone would bring me a glass of water- ' i could die right here' i thought- and i didnt- and well- i want to live, be happy and free- not breaking pills and -whatever-ugh- i have the best body i have had since i was 25- so--- i guess all those seroquel tablets they give to people in jail, and sleeping pills, and ,,, the stuff- well- i busted out-and it is SLOW- no one talks about getting off them, everyone talks about- adding to the stuff they are taking already= my friend says'the meds arent working so they added blah blah blah
i see some serious blah blah blah in yer future-sis...