when ever i say things like that i can already hear the laughter=
'seeking nuns to discuss social justice' in the personals ads
i wrote snd thanked whoever it was
because imagining having coffee with a nun'
in itself was pure
catholic hell
recently i had to renounce spiritual roles
the chair i painted
with bike horns on it
so whenever anyone thinks they have it together
they can toot their own horn
my friend says 'she better not hear that horn in the middle of the night'
not usually struck with my own magnificence at four in the morning
i seriously doubt that horn will get blown much by me
that is what my husbands said
shit=if you lived with me- you would be up laughing in the middle of the night too
i just had to give up the role as a sucker
my ad would say' hot woman that loves the idea of being in love far more than the effort that the whole relationship-equation, would prefer hot sex and rommance- but i am realistic- and duck tape works pretty good
less conversation more action"
putting that in my pipe and smoking it
waking up she puts cocoanut oil all over her body
shaved all the hair from the sacred place
gave it to the earth
threwaway all the clothes i wore
back then
when the sirens were in my mind
the ghosts of my past
died
lifted into yet another state
she floated all that unrelated
fractions held together by a formula
she could shapeshift to the plant medicnes
run the energy thru her body---but she couldnt fix it
it had been broken a very long time
he knew it
that she would take care of what needed to be taken care of
he felt her love
one last time
taking all that energy
out of the places it has been hiding
knowing that it cannot exist like that anymore
transformation lay ahead
