cold

[dolphin girl]

blow my nose
butterflies
no fun
feeling like this

their wings beat
inside my head
tickle my nose
when i exhale

no matter how many tissues
they keep collecting
and make fun of me
with their whimsical shadows
blasted butterfly wings

[ButtercupNutSwirlz]

here's a tissue
for your head
now be a good dolphin
and go to bed
till it passes
I'll keep the butterflies at bay

Cute little ditty
you must feel real shitty
I hate colds

[joel]

I cry easily--it's embarrassing. Over dumb stuff too. I shouldn't even listen to country stations on the radio when I'm on the highway...some of the songs have me in tears just because I anticipate where they're going. Empathy overtakes me easily--but I don't often cry for myself.

Last Tuesday I got some honest feedback from good friends. Not all the time, they said, but sometimes I come off pretty arrogantly. Critique of what I do doesn't hurt...but I heard this as critique of who I am.

Historically, I've understood myself on the oppressed and dominated side of bullying. I've hated myself for the flaws I accept from others; how could I hear I have done the same and not cry? How can I have ever left someone I love feeling like a peon and not wrap myself in the remose of my own grave?

How can I struggle with my own level of esteem and self-loathing and lord myself over someone else?

Gratitude for enlightenment did not stop the butterflies' wing-beats, collected in my crying in light mockery of my shame.

Thanks for your words. Thanks for your voice.

[dolphin girl]

Thanks Buttercup. And joel don't know if good or bad? No matter just trying to make light of how I feel. Just something silly.

Besides aren't dolphins suppose to be whimsical, as well as intelligent. Thanks for the response.



love lots